Pregnancy Journal

Now, I've heard from the beginning of my pregnancy about the crazy dreams. I was told that a pregnant female often time have the most far-fetched, oddest dreams. Hmmmm.....

The other night, I had a dream that I was sitting in the audience watching what seemed to be a stage play. In the dream, my thighs started to itch. I had reach to scratch, but when I looked down, I saw a bird nest sitting in my lap filled with eggs. The eggs were bright yellow, white, and gold. Anyway, I nonchalantly threw the nest over my shoulder, dusted off my lap from the remaining residue, and continued to watch the show. My thigh started to itch again. It was the same as the first time. I looked down, and there was that bird nest filled with eggs. Again, I threw it over my shoulder, dusted off my lap and continued to watch the show. This game of itch, find, throw, and dust off went on about 20 more times. I finally woke up and believe it or not, although just a dream.....the same spot on my thigh was still itching.

For the remainder of the day, I just kept wondering what it all meant. I guess it had been on my mind for quite some time. That following night, I dreamt that I went to get my ultrasound and discovered that I was having a boy.....and a girl. Twins. Figures.......they run very strong on both his side and mine. Unfortunately, I won't get that ultrasound to know anything for sure until I'm about 20 weeks.

     Well I am exactly 5 weeks today. I found out yesterday when I went to do my OB Registration at our Women's Health Clinic. I was informed that my due date would be 3 August. I know!!! It's seems sooooo far away. I plan on completing a semester at school. That should pass the time.

     I have been given the option to go to school while awaiting my medical reclassification board (that's a loooonnng time from now). I should give birth by then....maybe. My supervisor has given me the option to go to school so I am. I been going part time after work, but now I get to attend full time.

     A lot of the members of my family has had a lot to say about my pregnancy (not very encouraging either), and are not thrilled with the idea. At times like this, I am very grateful for the friends that I've been blessed with. I have been told from someone who's opinion I valued so dearly that my pregnancy was a "dilemma". Why would you refer to someone's unborn child as a dilemma? That was cold, but I've learned to just turn the other cheek.

     Although I was scared at first, I kept reminding myself that I can. I can do this....and I will!!! I wish I had their support. Sad to say, most of my encouragement comes from friends instead. To all of you, thanks for your support and encouragement. I am grateful to have each and every one of you. Because of you, I know that I won't be going through this alone.  Thanks guys.

   I've been trying with my partner for a while, but we didn't have any luck.....until now that is. With the timeline that we had, we decided to hold off on trying until he came back from his deployment to Iraq. Little did we know, the deed was already done.

   The week after he left, all I had been craving (and still to this day) was hot wings from KFC. Anyone who knows me well enough knows that I am not fond of spicy foods. Well, I was on the phone with my godmom one night while placing her on hold to make an order for wings. She overheard, and made assumption right away that I was pregnant. I just laughed and said: "Yeah right" The next night, I found myself back at the same KFC drive through placing yet another order for hot wings (that darn chicken), while on the phone with one of my best friends. She too wanted to know what was up with the hot wings, knowing how I am. She too made assumption that I was pregnant.

   So, to hush the fuss, and to prove everyone wrong, I bought a pregnancy test before I went home that night. When I got home and took it, the results came up positive, but it was ever so light. I also left the test in the bathroom for so long before reading the result that I thought what was being read may've been a faulty reading. I then decided to wait until the upcoming week to go on my base to the clinic and get another test done for confirmation. Lo and behold, that one was positive too. So, there you have it.  At first I was a little scared due to the fact that this is my first pregnancy and because my partner just left to go overseas, but I have a great support system around me. I figure, I'll be ok.