Ready to meet our daughter I am ready to meet our daughter!! I am feeling done with all these doctor's appointments, checking blood sugars, taking insulin, being so so uncomfortable at night. Ugh! My feet have been swelling the past couple of days, and I am so not looking forward to mentioning it to my doctor since he'll just tell me not to eat salt. I have had no problems with swelling so far at all so it seems to me that I'm just getting close to the end and I am sick of hearing his pat advice! I don't like to eat unsalted food because it has NO taste due to my nasal polyps and lack of ability to smell.
I am also not looking forward to getting weighed, last appointment I gained five pounds in one week. I told Pete yesterday I am so sick of these men (my regular doctor and my specialist) in my business!!!! I don't want to hear anything about anything....I am sick of hearing how crappy I am at controlling my blood sugar, how it's my fault I've gained weight (no kidding), how any complications of my pregnancy are my own fault. I just cannot wait until my baby girl is born because then they can just concentrate on her and leave her mommy the heck alone!!!!!!
We still have lots to do to get ready for her arrival but things are coming along, I've started packing my hospital bag and her diaper bag, I brought some unisex coloured clothes in case we are actually having a boy :) I am so so so looking forward to her being here, next time I get pregnant I want to start out a lot lot lighter so that the pregnancy is easier on me, really she has been such an easy baby to carry I've just had issues brought on by being so heavy.
And I cannot wait until my business is my business again, these docs can just shove off!!!!!!
2008-03-14 (36 weeks)
Getting Ready So the apartment is coming along nicely, thanks to mostly Daddy's hard work. The space is being utilized so much better by having our computer room in our big kitchen that was totally not being used before. That way the old computer room is total baby central :) It's so nice to have a place to store baby stuff. Most everything is assembled now, the bassinet, stroller, high chair, swing, pack n play, bouncy chair. We have a few more things to clean up and then everything can be distributed throughout the apartment (pack n play in the living room, swing in the computer room, bassinet in our room etc.)
I have actually been staying awake all day the past couple of days, unbelievable I know, it's because sleeping is uncomfortable now! I don't know if the baby is sitting lower in me or what but the pressure is unbelievable, or she still might be high since I have such a hard time breathing while laying down. I sleep practically sitting up now. It's also since I have to wake up early to take my blood pressure medicine, and I get up hungry, then I want breakfast, then I have to take my sugar readings and insulin, so I might as well stay up you get the idea.
We had a lot of stress over this apartment the past few days, not sure if we were going to be able to stay here, THANKFULLY we are able to stay, and we found a solution to the problem. I just hated this place before and still it's not perfect, but almost having to leave has made me value it more and more lol. Plus, I am getting more happy with it the more adjustments we make to welcome our daughter :) I still am on the list for rent reduced housing, for over a year now, and we'll see how that goes. I would love to move to a nicer place with lower rent sometime in the summer, so I am all healed from the c-section.
I am nervous that I'll arrive at the hospital for the c-section and they'll just send me away that I've made a mistake or something! I feel like she is still sideways so c-section seems to be inevitable, Pete totally supports it and says I shouldn't feel bad about giving in and not waiting to try a vaginal delivery. If she stays sideways then it's not my choice anyway, but still I feel dread when thinking of the recovery. I want to be able to jump up and run to my baby if she needs me, I hope to recover quickly. I am so lucky that Pete will be here with us during those times I am sure they will be a huge challenge.
I have two doctors appointments next week, then the following week is the c-section! Can you believe it! Unless it gets rescheduled or something of course, which could always happen. One thing I am curious about is whether or not I will be getting an amnio to test the maturity of her lungs, that hasn't been mentioned but I think I will ask about that next week.
That's all for now, off to do a quick load of dishes then off to sleep upright like a horse (a sitting horse).
2008-03-11 (36 weeks)
The last month Well I'm in my last month of my first pregnancy. There are times when I think I will want to do this again as soon as possible (picturing siblings that are close together and have fun doing all sorts of activities together) but practically I'm not sure when I'll get pregnant again. Since I'm having a c-section, I think it's recommended to wait longer than with a vaginal delivery. Part of me is happy that I'll more than likely have another c-section next time, especially if they do the vertical incision instead of the horizontal one which we have discussed.
I am so excited to meet my daughter. My first daughter :) Who knows if I will have more daughters or a son or two? I am so happy to be starting my family. I can't believe that in our home is going to be this wonderful little person, I'm sure we will have so many laughs and good times with her. (If this is actually a boy, you all know how much I will love my son of course!) Pete loves to take pictures so if we could just get a decent camera we will have so many wonderful memories of our daughter's first months and on :)
I can't sleep at night lately, I just lay there awake thinking of a million things. I can sleep no problem at all during the day, but for some reason lay awake all night. My appetite has increased about a hundred times in the past week, I get so ravenous and poor Pete half the time I just take his food since it looks good!! He has learned to gauge my mood and whether I am crabby because I want his food and he'll offer it to me lol. Poor guy we have been under a lot of stress the past few days with our living situation, but hopefully we got it all straightened out now and we can continue getting ready for baby girl's arrival.
Pete put together the stroller which my parents helped us get, (we get to make payments towards it rather than have to pay the whole cost at once), it's really nice and sturdy, it's going to be fun to take walks with her in nice weather. And Thunder will love it too. We were laughing today saying that "Mowski" will probably be our daughters' first word (it's a nickname for Thunder).
Anyway, soon I'll be writing entries just before the surgery, then after when baby arrives! I am so excited, yet so totally unprepared at the same time!!
2008-03-07 (35 weeks)
Just an Update Well I went to my doctor appointments this week, and I started high blood pressure medicine. I am glad to start it since it seems to be for an important function! My blood pressure was 166/96 when I was prescribed the medicine, then a couple of days later I saw my specialist and he sent me to the hospital to get a non-stress test for the baby since my blood pressure was still high.
At the hospital, my blood pressure rose to 177/103, but the baby responded well to the test and when she moved around her heart rate rose, which is what they are looking for. My medicine dosage was increased though, starting tomorrow. That's fine, I want to lower my blood pressure as well! I get the non-stress tests at the hospital every week now, of course there is only three weeks to go until my c-section!
This evening after I took a nap, I got up to watch Survivor, and as I was sitting on the couch relaxing, the room started spinning! It spun around for about 20 seconds, and I was very exhausted after. I called the maternity ward since they said to call anytime with any concerns, and the nurse said that I was probably overdue for my next dose of blood pressure medicine. I checked my blood sugar and it wasn't too low so it wasn't that.
Anyway Pete set my cell phone so that it goes off twice a day at twelve hour intervals so that I take my medicine at an even spacing (today it was about sixteen hours apart).
It is scary to be worried about this but I am so so glad that I am being monitored so often, I see a doctor every week whether it's my regular doctor or a specialist, plus these non-stress tests often now to check on the baby. Pete did so much work in our apartment to organize a space for baby girl, and I am so appreciative of everything he does for us every day :)
I went to my sister's the other day and she got some great treats for Carly, a couple of pictures for the room, baby shower pics, her first snowsuit, a snowsuit for next winter, a couple of pairs of booties, how cute! I had a delicious supper over there (tacos!!!!) and enjoyed watching a movie with everyone (Mr. Magorium's Magic Emporium) and when I left she gave us a swing and a bassinet for our little one. So happy about that and very grateful.
Well baby Carly is going to be here before I know it. With all these appointments and everything I have to do everyday (insulin, blood sugar testing, different meds), the next three weeks are going to fly by. I am terrified that one of these times going into the hospital for a test they are just going to keep me and do the surgery early! Hopefully she is safe where she is for as long as possible :) I still love to feel her move and bop around, but now I am also aching to hold her in my arms, all healthy and happy of course! And I know I'll bawl like a baby when I see her daddy hold her!
