Growing Along Tonight I was laying on the couch watching Top Chef, and I had my hand resting on my belly, and I felt the baby kick twice! From the outside can you believe it! It was such a special moment and the first time I have felt it from the outside. I actually cried out since I was so surprised lol. And it was odd that the baby kicked right where my hand was, coincidence I'm sure!
The other night I had this really amazing dream. It seemed so real. It was me breastfeeding my daughter. I don't know anything about breastfeeding since I am a first time mom but it was odd because I knew in my dream to properly get my daughter latched, I made sure her mouth was wide open to get a proper latch and all that stuff. It was a dream that made me really happy, I wonder if it's showing my subconscious desire to breastfeed, something I haven't made my decision on yet.
Today is Wednesday and I have my doctors appointment tomorrow, can't wait to hear that heartbeat :) and I am hoping he will order another ultrasound, I just can't quite accept that I might not find out whether we are having little Carly or Peter join us in April!!
2007-11-26 (20 weeks)
Heirloom Well I had an idea for something I want to enjoy when my baby is born, and give to my daughter or daughter-in-law when they have their first child. A mommy bible! This lady I used to know (the mother of a good friend) told me that the Psalms really helped her through some tough nights with her children. I am sure there are bibles made for mommies, with certain passages highlighted to bring comfort and peace.
I told Pete about this idea of mine and although he is not religious he agrees it would be a very nice heirloom :)
2007-11-25 (20 weeks)
Lazy Days Well, I've been off work since July, this whole pregnancy in fact. What a blessing that has been! The fatigue in the first trimester, the queasiness, the insane hunger, would have been impossible to deal with in a small office with two other people sitting right there. Not to mention the constipation and painful gas that comes with the second trimester. Lots of times I would have been heading home in pain!!
Despite knowing how lucky I am to have been off this whole pregnancy, now that I am officially laid off from my position, I have been feeling very bored during the days. I sleep too much (although I am happy I am able to rest on demand) and feel guilty about it. The quality of sleep is pretty low due to my congestion so I'm sure that doesn't help.
I am really looking forward to the new year, I am looking at taking some classes at Northern starting in January. I am considering taking the Social Service Worker program starting in September 08, but I could take some classes in advance this January and see if I am really into the program. I might love it! It seems funny to take a different course when I've just graduated accounting, but if I also graduate this program it will broaden my employment opportunities. Not too mention I've hated the only accounting job I've ever had! So keep posted for me complaining in January that I just wish I could stay home and rest again lol.
Of course, the main event for me of 2008 will be in April when I have my baby! I am starting to picture dressing the baby, wrapping it up in a blanket so it's cozy and just cuddling away. I am picturing feeding the baby, having to pump if I decide to breastfeed etc. I may not decide to breastfeed though, since I am looking at school, but we'll see, I really think I would enjoy having the baby to myself to feed lol, for some private mommy and baby time :)
I have my doctor's appointment coming up on Nov. 29, I am nervous for the weigh-in since I am sure I have gained weight. I don't know what to say! I've always loved loved loved to eat let alone now that I am pregnant and the hunger is unbelievable. Well, I was telling my sis that next pregnancy I'll do everything just perfect how about that :)
I enjoyed going over to my sis' house to visit her family on the 23rd, we were supposed to decorate her tree but we got kind of a late start to the evening and by the time we ate supper (tacos yum yum yum!!!) our parents were there to have some cake and for us to wish my dad a happy birthday :) When I came home, Pete had dragged out our Christmas tree and put up the lights, our stockings, and put out our snowman and santa nicknacks etc. I appreciated it so much!! The next day I finished decorating the tree, and felt in such a happy Christmas mood. I listened to a Christmas CD. from Barb that I really enjoyed, and watched Christmas With the Kranks (I love Christmas movies!!) I still get cheered up every time I look at the tree, and the cool thing is that Christmas 2008 my son or daughter will be here with us (hoping and praying everything goes well!!)
Well, anyway, although I am somewhat bored now I am very lucky to be able to relax and enjoy this calm before the storm of 2008. I will try to remember what this feels like when I am in school and my baby arrives :)
2007-11-23 (20 weeks)
What is with the mood and the 'tude!! So I am in a wretched mood today. I cannot get out of this funk! I think it's because my nasal congestion is just out of control. It's ridiculous! I am constantly sniffling and tossing and turning in bed trying to get some relief. I have to blow my nose about eighty times a night and it's so annoying!! Especially since the toilet paper roll I have been using (out of Kleenex) rolls off my night table and under the bed!!
I got really ticked off when this happened and tried to pitch a fit by complaining and pushing the bed aside to get it, but I am getting to be quite ungainly and the whole effort took way too long to be considered a proper fit. Ugh!!
I have to get up pretty slowly now so I don't get that pain that feels like you pulled a groin muscle, which is not so bad in itself but I know I am going to get so much bigger still lol. It looks like my claim for unemployment is going to go through which is good news, but it is still on "suspension" which is apparently the last stage before it's approved. We tried to make our money last from out last cheque since we knew there was going to be a delay, but we found ourselves really low on food the past couple of days.
Thankfully, my parents gave us a bunch of food, which is very very appreciated. I was especially happy to see some chocolate pudding had somehow made it into one of the bags :)
Tonight I am going to my sis' house, to help decorate their tree, and to wish my dad a happy birthday and all that good stuff. I am hoping to be in a much better mood by then, I am sick of being a grumpy Gus!!
