Excited It is so exciting to think of how my pregnancy is progressing! In one more week I'll be in my third trimester, and already I only have 98 days to go (it's exciting to get down to the double digits!). I am starting to get a little bit antsy to get set up for the baby, because I feel like the time is going to fly by.
I have my appointment on February 1 for the 3-D ultrasound place, it's only a month away! And I'll be 30 weeks along then. We are worried about the weather at that time, we have to travel about 4.5 hours twice in one day to arrive there and then drive back. I hope hope the weather is wonderful. On another note, by looking at our finances again before that time, we may decide not to get it done. I have a doctor's appointment on January 8, and it will help if he sends me for another ultrasound before then. It will be easier to let the other one go in that case, although I would be sad I might not be in shape to travel at all then anyway.
I am so looking forward to having the baby's sleeping area set up, I really want to get some of those nice painted wooden letters to hang over the crib or bassinet that spells out the baby's name. We love the name Carly for a girl, and Peter for a boy. However.... I have started liking the name Marissa for a girl lol. So we'll see ;)
New Years Eve was super quiet for us, one of Pete's friends called him up to see if he wanted to go out but we decided to just hang out at home. The nice thing was that I didn't do one chore at all!! My own type of party enjoyment :) I have been having such choppy sleeps lately, I have to get up to pee every two hours, then I get hungry after going to the bathroom. Last night's sleep was actually not too bad though.
I can't believe it's 2008! We have no calenders in our house, and I Like to have three or four normally lol so we will be stocking up shortly. Hopefully they are all at a good price now that the holidays are over.
It's still hard for me to believe I'll be a mommy this year. Please please let everything go well :)
2007-12-31 (25 weeks)
Something cool from an online forum Being a Mom
We are sitting at lunch one day when my daughter casually mentions that she and her husband are thinking of 'starting a family.'
'We're taking a survey,' she says half-joking. 'Do you think I should have a baby?'
'It will change your life,' I say, carefully keeping my tone neutral.
'I know,' she says, 'no more sleeping in on weekends, no more spontaneous vacations.'
But that is not what I meant at all. I look at my daughter, trying to decide what to tell her. I want her to know what she will never learn in childbirth classes. I want to tell her that the physical wounds of child bearing will heal, but becoming a mother will leave her with an emotional wound so raw that she will forever be vulnerable.
I consider warning her that she will never again read a newspaper without asking, 'What if that had been MY child?' That every plane crash, every house fire will haunt her. That when she sees pictures of starving children, she will wonder if anything could be worse than watching your child die.
I look at her carefully manicured nails and stylish suit and think that no matter how sophisticated she is, becoming a mother will reduce her to the primitive level of a bear protecting her cub. That an urgent call of 'Mom!' will cause her to drop a soufflé or her best crystal without a moments
hesitation.
I feel that I should warn her that no matter how many years she has invested in her career, she will be professionally derailed by motherhood. She might arrange for childcare, but one day she will be going into an important business meeting and she will think of her baby's sweet smell. She will have to use every ounce of discipline to keep from running home, just to make sure her baby is all right.
I want my daughter to know that every day decisions will no longer be routine. That a five year old boy's desire to go to the men's room rather than the women's at McDonald's will become a major dilemma. That right there, in the midst of clattering trays and screaming children, issues of independence and gender identity will be weighed against the prospect that a child molester may be lurking in that restroom.
However decisive she may be at the office, she will second-guess herself constantly as a mother. Looking at my attractive daughter, I want to assure her that eventually she will shed the pounds of
pregnancy , but she will never feel the same about herself. That her life, now so important, will be of less value to her once she has a child. That she would give herself up in a moment to save her offspring, but will also begin to hope for more years, not to accomplish her own dreams, but to watch her child accomplish theirs.
I want her to know that a Cesarean scar or shiny stretch marks will become badges of honor. My daughter's relationship with her husband will change, but not in the way she thinks. I wish she could understand how much more you can love a man who is careful to powder the baby or who never hesitates to play with his child. I think she should know that she will fall in love with him again for reasons she would now find
very unromantic.
I wish my daughter could sense the bond she will feel with women throughout history who have tried to stop war, prejudice and drunk driving.
I want to describe to my daughter the exhilaration of seeing your child learn to ride a bike. I want to capture for her the belly laugh of a baby who is touching the soft fur of a dog or cat for the first time. I want her to taste the joy that is so real it actually hurts.
My daughter's quizzical look makes me realize that tears have formed in my eyes.
'You'll never regret it,' I finally say. Then I reach across the table, squeeze my daughter's hand and offer a silent prayer for her, and for me, and for all the mere mortal women who stumble their way into this most wonderful of callings.
This was so sweet and lovely :)
2007-12-28 (25 weeks)
So so tired This is just a quick post to write about how tired I am lol. I have slept most of today and I can easily go back to bed after I eat my Mr. Noodles. It feels so good to rest but the quality of the sleep is crappy due to my nasal congestion which is out of control!!!
I am enjoying all my Christmas presents, especially the books and movies :) I am just so tired! I could sleep for eight days. A cool thing happened last night, I was sitting at my computer and I cried out because the baby kicked me so high, about an inch from my ribs. Two seconds before this happened I was telling Pete that I was scared for when the baby started to kick my ribs, I was sure it would hurt! The baby kicked me pretty hard three times in that high spot, for the third time Pete had his hand there and felt it. He LOVES to feel the baby kick so that was a happy moment.
I was thinking more about the delivery, and I'm more scared about after the delivery, the recovery process. My wonderful baby will be born, and lovely, and I will be.....a MESS!!! I would like to be comfortable and get to enjoy the baby however I am terrified that I will be in agony from the birth for a good long time :( Like I said the delivery part is one thing, but at least that is important in order to get the baby out, it has a purpose! All the agony afterward? Not necessary. I think women should immediately recover from birthing their babies!! It's only fair.
Well I am off to make some Mr. Noodles and then go to bed again!!!
2007-12-24 (24 weeks)
A nicer post Well my last post was not very Merry so this is a nicer post :) I am so excited for Christmas. I am excited to give my little niece and nephews their gifts, especially the glow in the dark Winnie the Pooh for my six month old nephew. I saw it and I knew it was something I would buy for my baby so it seemed perfect! I have nieces and nephews out of town too, some I have never met. I love to receive pictures of them though, and I must say they are beautiful children :)
Next year at this time my little one will be nine months old (praying for everything to go as it's supposed to--for a healthy, happy child). I will be bouncing him/her on my knee and maybe giving them something of their very own that glows in the dark lol. Pete and I have decided to stay in the apartment we are in now, even though it's not perfect, it is close to the college, and it accepts our dog Thunder, which is rare.
Since I am looking at taking the nursing program starting september, and also some classes this January, it's a good idea to stay here. We are going to have the baby sleep in our room, but the computer room will be turned into baby central with the changing table, a chair for rocking, dressers, baby clothes etc. The computers and our desks will be set up in our kitchen, we have a good sized kitchen and after the tree comes out it will make for a good computer room.
I am so excited for 2008. It is going to be the most exciting year of my life with my little one being born. Tonight I am visiting my sis and her family, we are having a spaghetti dinner and giving our gifts to the kids. Then after that we are visiting my parents, I can't wait to meet their new cute little kitten. Tomorrow we are heading over to my in-laws, so all in all we should have a very Merry Christmas. I am sending out Christmas wishes to all my family and friends, and to all the expecting mommies and daddies out there :)
