Pregnancy Journal

Today I am 37weeks pregnant.. I didnt think I would make it to 37 but here I am. Actually now I think she will come by this Sunday so we will see. The contractions are getting stronger and longer... and closer together but not repeating... there were only two today so far and they were ten minutes apart so nothing to worry about. I have my Dr's appt today at 2:30 but I will go in earlier and hope that they take me sooner than 2:30 because My husband and I need to be an hour away from here by 3:45 the latest so we have to somehow make sure to be out of the appt by 3pm the latest...but we can only hope... anyways, I am feeling pretty good actually for 37 weeks... I wasnt feeling so good last week because for about 4 nights I got no sleep at all and it caught up to me. Now I feel fine.. Well legs are swallen and they hurt and I wake up 5 to 7 times a night but I am used to that already so it doesnt bother me... its when I get NO SLEEP that I feel like crying and giving up...

I had to change my return date to work.. Originally I had told them I will leave work on the 13th of June (last day) and return on the 6th of October and thats like the maximum time i can take and i was going to take it but now i am seeing that there is no way we can survive without my pay check.. just no way... so I will take my 6 weeks 70% paid, then my week paid vacation and one week non paid... so hopefully we wont be too bad financially. I just hope to God that I am all recovered by then... from giving birth and I have to have a procedure done 6 weeks after I give birth so Hopefully if anything I can have my Dr fill out some papers and have her say on there that I need additional time off to recover from that as well. we will see how things go as they happen.... hopefully well.. the only other two things that concern me are pumping my breast milk at work and also how our schedules will work out with watching the baby when I return to work... ughhh.. so many things to worry about! anyways, thats all the updating for now.. today they will check my cervix to see if I have dialated at all which i believe I have and we are doing our last ultrasound so I will see how big the baby is.. by now She should be 7 pounds... thats my guess because she was 5.5 last time and that was like a month ago..

Well I had a Dr's appt yesterday and as usual am measuring ahead. By about a week and a half I believe.. We didnt do an ultrasound since I had one two weeks ago but at that time baby was 5.5 pounds so by now she should be about 6.5 pounds...yes, I am having a HUGE baby, dont ask me how she is coming out all I know is she is COMING OUT... I am actually ready for her now... a few weeks ago I needed to prepare mentally and so I did...  Dr says get ready because she is comming... she didnt say how long it would be but she says I am very close to having her.. She is down in the birthing canal and is continuing to move down so hopefully... I PRAY TO GOD that I am very much dialated when my water brakes so that It will be over quickly.... I know I wont make it to my due date of June 17th.. its just not happening.. I am sure they will want to induce me if I dont go in the next 3 weeks because if i make it to June 17th it means I may as well have a 9 or 10 pounds baby which is ok with me but I am hoping she is nice to mommy as she has been this whole time and come out early... Anyways, I feel better than I have throughout this whole pregnancy.. I have energy.... more than usual, I am not as exhausted as before, I am in a better mood, I think I heard somewhere that its a sign labor is in progress... we will just have to wait and see...  Stress is building more and more at work... I started a new position and I am still doing my old stuff and my new stuff so I am working two jobs and it is pissing me off because the new person who is supposed to take over my old garbage is not yet up to speed with things but that is not my problem i dont need that much work in my 9th month of pregnancy (starting my 9th month next tuesday) so I told my old boss today that neither he or my new Mgr pay me enough to do two jobs... he says to me " we all do more work than we can handle" and so I said " no not all of us do and second- you get paid more than enough not to complain i dont!" of course I said all of this with a smiling face because there is no better way to say the things you need to get off your chest as mean as they are and having a smile on your face makes it somehow not as mean. oh well i dont care.. soon enough baby will be here and i will get to have some time away from this job. too bad it wont be as long as i need because I need to get paid... :( anyways, thats all for now... go back to the doc next tuesday with the non stress test again.. baby is very active so no worries there oh and i am negative on my strep b test.. yeyyy!!!

So I had my GBS test done yesterday and I was a little nervous about it because I didnt know what to expect. I knew its a swab but didnt know how far in they go or anything like that and I am always scared of the things I have not yet experienced.. well the ones that have to do with down there anyway! SO they did my blood pressure and it was pretty high and my pulse was 120 which again is high.. for the people that dont know I went to the ER and spent the night in Labor and Delivery because of my pulse. It had been 140 and it was due to dehydration so all you preggos drink your water.. So she wasnt concerned with my pulse because she knew I was nervous about the test being done.. She was in a hurry thought because the back up Dr had her baby last Friday so my Dr is alone now so things are crazy... I feel for her.. Never the less though she is very professional with me and does everything and explains things to me when I ask questions.. So I only gained 3 pounds in the past month which is good for me because throughout this pregnancy I have gained like a million pounds.. We then did the B strep test and she puts the swab in and twists it a few times to get stuff from in there and then to my surprise she stuck it in the rectum.. i knew they go over it but wasnt aware they would be trying to stick it in there.. it was a surprise lets just leave it at that.. my husband laughed at me because he saw my face...my surprise face!!! then we did the 3D my little princess is no longer little she is the BIG princess now... weighing at 5 pounds 5 ounces... kinda big for 33 weeks but hey as long as she is healthy i dont mind her being a big baby.. i might be needing an epidural to get her out of me but thats ok too.. Thats the update with the baby then I go back to the Dr on the 13th of May and then every week so on the 20th and then on the 27th and so on until I deliver.. It is getting so close and I am starting to get really excited.. last week it was lots of feelings of being scared but now the excitement kicks in.. have been having minor braxton hicks contractions none today.. but usually 3 a day or so.. for no longer than 5 seconds...

Other than that I have my pretty dress for Sunday.. my sisters wedding.. i have to find comfy shoes though which will be hard because being up is uncomfortable no matter what I wear at this point... thats all the updates for now...