| 2008-01-16 (18 weeks) |
Baby's kicks
A couple of days ago we were at my moms house and as I was sitting there I thought I felt the baby move chich is normal because I have been feeling her move for a while now. Every time I would take a deep breath I felt her move a LOT... I mean she was tickling me and I started laughing to myself. Then I went to sit by my husband and all of a sudden BOOM!!! and I jumped.... I thought oh that was strange and It was the baby kicking.... then again she kicked and kicked and it was so powerful that I kept jumping off the seat.... I wasnt used to it but I loved the feeling.... so then I told my husband to put his hand there and see if he can feel her kick from the outside but then she stopped.... I said "what?" I mean she is gonna be such a daddy's little girl its unbelievable.... He loves her so! He talks to her every day and sings to her and tells her the plans we have and everything... I talk to her less because I feel like I am bonding with her in other ways. She is in me so I feel like we connect without having to speak! And so I think she will be so spoiled by her daddy! he is gonna love her so much.... Last night he told me that every time he looks at me his eyes water because he cant believe that I am his wife and how beautiful I am... and I looked at him and it was just one of those moments where you know you are at the right place at the right time and I told him .... One day you will look at your daughter and your eyes will water that same way because she is so beautiful and she is yours..... I married the best man! Anyhow, baby hasnt kicked like that since... she moves and moves and I think she tries to kick but I havent felt her kick like the other night... I am sure it will happen again very soon. Today I am 18 weeks and 1 day. I have to go to the doctor tomorrow for some more blood work and I am not sure what else. I might either go alone or take my mom with me. I hate needles but I love knowing about the baby so I am excited! I wonder when the next ultrasound will be... I should ask her that.... |
| 2008-01-07 (16 weeks) |
wonderful man
Ladies I believe that we should all give a thanks to our men... weather boyfriend, husband or partner. I have just recently realized how much my husband is willing to jepardize for me, how much he is willing to do to make me happy and make sure I am safe. I always knew my husband loves and adores me I mean if I doubted that I would not have married him. And I know that at times I can be the biggest pain in his ass but I never really realized just how much unapreciative I have been til last night. We were at my parents house and my knowledge on something turned into a heated argument and in the end it was me against my father. He had been drinking so I knew he would get out of line but I would not stand there and be quiet if someone is disrespecting me and embarassing me in front of other people. So one thing lead to another and we were just screaming at eachother. he said some pretty awful things to me and threw me and my husband out and told us to never come back again.I told him he would never see my daughter...Then went into something like a panic attack. My husband was so upset that my father talked to me that way and made me so angry that he went back in the house and was yelling at my father about being so damn disrespectful and that because of him something can happen to the baby.If my mom was not between my husband and my father they would have beaten the hell out of one another which is not what anyone would have wanted. But my mom came out side to help me because I couldnt breathe and got me back in the house to one of the bedrooms....my husband stood by me the whole time and rubbed my belly and talked to me and held my hand... when we went home we layed in bed talking for over 2 hours and it was so nice to just be there with him and knowing that he would have beat my dad up if he had to protect me and he did protect me. My father was way out of line and my husband stood up for me and my mom even adored him for it because she says a man should always stand up for his wife no matter who he is standing up to. And my husband did that for me. It was an awful scene but it made me love and adore my husband even more than I did before and appreciate him so much more and I started to realize that maybe I dont treat him the way he should be treated, I mean I always fight with him about small stupid things and now I just feel like I need to be there with him the way he is with me... I love that man! |
| 2008-01-04 (16 weeks) |
just blah
today is friday and I am 16 weeks and 3 days pregnant. The pregnancy is going just great but other things in life are not so great. I mean I love everything and everyone in my life but there is just one thing that keeps bothering me and it doesnt seem to get better. Anyways, its got me all down....I couldnt sleep last night much and I took half the day at work. I slept til 11 something and went into work at noon. I look like crap...my eyes are all weird and seem swallen, i am sick as hell from the cold outside... i just cant be this way anymore.... this one thing has to change because if it doesnt I will not be around to tolerate it.... I know I am being secretive but I just cant put it out there like that... its personal and as much as i love to share my thoughts and feelings this one just has to be kept inside. But like I was saying the pregnancy is going very well. I feel great being pregnant, my stomach is growing at the speed of a bullet and i feel the baby move more and more each day. she is a fun one i can already tell.... i love it when she moves... and im always so afraid that when im stressed out does she know? does she feel anything? can it harm her in any way? its hard trying to be protective of this little baby inside you when you have so many issues that stress you out... Oh another good news is that my sister and her bf got engaged last night... we all knew except for my dad... he was shocked in a good way... he even cried... he didnt cry at my engagement but thats cuz he knew we were getting engaged that night... oh and my sister is preggos too. she is only a few weeks... almost 4 or so... I dont have that many crazy hormones anymore... i barely have any crazy outrages but still when things happen i always cry... i am still emotional... Its crazy how im almost half way through my pregnancy it goes by so quick |
| 2008-01-02 (16 weeks) |
getting bigger!!!
Well today I feel a little bit out of my element... I was nauseous earlier and then went to get some food and while standing at line I felt really dizzy! must be my blood pressure....I bought a bagel and cereal...i started to eat the cereal but I didnt like it too much and threw it out and ended up only eating the bagel. I am not sure if I am still hungry or full...I will wait a bit and see how I feel. I dont eat too much....I eat many many times a day but not much at a time. Which is great...but it sucks having to wake up in the middle of the night cuz your stomach is grawling at you! More and more each day I feel the baby's movements... I felt them before too but now each day they get stronger and stronger and its the most amazing feeling in the world. By the way I am soooo sick of taking these Vitams..... I swear they made those pills for horses or something. It takes a bottle of water to swallow one and the aftertaste is just awful. Anyhow, I am getting bigger and bigger by the second...haha well maybe not the second but by the day for sure. My mom had gotten me some pregnancy pants for chistmas and I exchanged them last night and the ones I got are so much more comfortable....My mom has taste and all its just that noone really knows pregnancy clothes better than you when you are pregnant....thats all. so these are much better fitting than the ones before. My husband also exchanged the jeans mom got him because they werent a perfect fit but the ones we got are so cute....He has a nice ass so I like something a little bit more on him....Ok after drinking that bottle of water for the horse pill I feel full....I wont eat til lunch time ...Gaining weight feels awful. I know its for the baby and its not like Im gaining all that much weight but I have such a hard time losing weight that I just cant imagine how Im going to do it after I give birth....geez!!! But anything for the baby.... I am 16 weeks and 1 day today and I have gained 10 pounds so far....I believe thats pretty normal concidering I am about half way there! Next week I have to go to my doctor again for some more blood tests. I hate the needles but as I keep saying Anything FOR THE BABY! |
