39 hours to go I have 39 more hours to go before I have my ultrasound. Im so scared and nervous and tense and pessimistic. My ovaries have my heart and head in a tail spin. One minute I think I've ovulated the next Im positive I over stimulated again then I wonder if I haven't even made on folli. I just have to get through the next 39 hours. This is so hard. I can't remember it being this hard ttc "P".
2007-01-11 (0 weeks)
Im here, Im here Here is a fairly condensed version of what has happened since I've been away.
1/6 Saturday: I had some cramping and brown staining when I wiped. I took "P" to a birthday party that afternoon. The cramping because worse so I figured I better get into gear and decided to go over to the hospital that night for my blood work. Around 8:30pm I picked up my cousin M and we went over to get the blood drawn and pee in a cup for the Chlamidia(sp?) test. We get there and the ER looks puzzled that they dont have the order. The lady is either not thinking clearly or is just dumb. I finally offered to walk across the hall to the lab and get it. She acted as if that didn't even occur to her lol. We went over, got the labs and walked back. They registered me and sent be back to the lab. I get there and the blood draws were very easy. That is not like me at all. My veins never co-operate. Lucky me this time. Then she hands me a cup to go do my thing. I took down my pants and realized there was two small drops of blood in my underhoos. This was it, my period is here and we're going to have to deal with it. Once I come out she says that they dont know what a URINE Chlam- test is. I asked her to keep it just in case they figure it out because I have to have these tests in soon. She did keep it and we left. I took my cousin home and than drove the hour trip back home.
1/7 Sunday (aka CD 1): Cramping is horrible, almost unbearable. At one point it was so bad I had goosebumps all over my body, I was shaking from being so cold and had a stabbing pain where I think my c-section insicion is. I spent most of the day on the couch trying to keep "P" occupied with Cars the movie (it worked by the way.) It was a heavier flow than I've had in a long time.
1/8 Monday (aka CD2): This was a very emotional day for me. Usually Im not nearly this emotional on my period. I was aggitated with everything and everyone. I called the fertility clinic to let them know Im cycling. She asked what the plan was for this month. Clomid cd3-7, u/s cd 12, HCG trigger when ready and IUI 36 hours post trigger followed by Prometrium until AF arrives or 12 weeks of pregnancy. My ultrasound was set for Jan 18 at 9:30am. Later that day my OBGYN office called to say the lab called about the Chlam test. I needed to go back in and pee in another cup because they really didn't know how to do it and needed to have it explained. I told her I'd go in Wed. I picked my sister up from school and headed over to Wal-mart because my pictures were in. She was begging me to buy her a notebook. I refused because I didn't have the money (and she really doesn't need another note book.) It didn't go well, she wouldn't stop nagging and I had to raise my voice in the store. She calmed down for a bit. While I was there I took two econo sized Huggies diapers back (sort of). I needed to get a refund for them because I accidently paid for them with cash instead of the gift card. Once I got the money refunded I was going to purchase the same two boxes of diapers with the gift card. The lady was less than pleased to have to deal with me. She wouldn't stop being rude with her comments of I can't believe you are doing this, whatever you need to do I guess. At one point she mumbled something under her breath, I asked her "Pardon?" She replied "Oh I guess its just me." I wanted to cry. Don't you try and save money wherever you can? That was over 40 dollars. I needed it for some unexpected ttc expenses. After that I was trying to get to the baby section to get "P" some more sippy cups. There was a family that was walking very slowly I tried to get through and started going faster. Well a little girl with their family I think she was 5. was standing in front. I said excuse me, she started moving and I went faster. The cart "bonked" (lack of a better word) her coat. Nothing happened and two steps later I felt horrible about it. Anyway as soon as it happened one of the ladies called out B*tch. "If you knocked her down I would have sued you!" I TOTALLY understand their worry and if someone would have done that to "P" I would have felt the same. Im not excusing what happened at all. I should have slowed down. It sent me into a panic attack though. This family was the sort that Im sure were involved in gangs or gang like settings because of their demeanors, dress etc. I honestly was waiting for one of them to come attack me. Especially the woman who helled out. It took about 20-30 mins to calm down. I got the sippy cups and my sister began to get mad that we were "still" at walmart. I picked up the pictures and we left. That night I cried. I was overly emotional and finally at a breaking point. I didn't cry for very long, but Im glad I did. Since then I haven't bad.
1/9 Tuesday (aka CD 3): I started the Clomid. Nothing much happened or if it did I dont remember.
1/10 Wednesday (aka CD 4): I spent the day at my cousin M's house so the kids could play. I was pretty tired. A couple of times I felt a twing on my right ovary. Im praying the Clomid is working. Around 4:30 I went back over to the hospital to pee in another cup. Apparently all the techs had to attend a meeting on urine chlam tests LOL. No one knew how to do them. So I did my thing and went home.
