And so I must wait... The day I wrote my first entry about actually having a baby, I had a MASSIVE headache! Normally if a headache doesn't go away in two hours, I can take excedrin Migraine. It's the ONLY medication that has ever worked for me. But here I was, stuck with a headache, late at night. It wasn't going away and as always with all my headaches that don't go away they turn into nasty migraines!
Well, I knew I couldn't take any random pills now that I was pregnant, and I was in too much pain, sitting in a cold bath tub trying to numb the pain. My husband went online and found out I could take Tylenol.
1. Only Excedrin Migraine has ever helped, along with Chamomile tea.
2. Walmart CLOSED at 11:00, which was about 5 minutes ago. Welcome to the small towns.
I ended up sitting outside in the dark and wind and cold, then I eventually felt up to getting myself some chamomile. About 2:00 a.m. I started to crash from the chamomile finally.
I thought seeing a doctor would be really helpful for me, but they won't see me until November 15th! Oh well. At least the Pregnancy Center gave me an Actual due date now. June 11, 2008.
The pain is so severe but I can't risk hurting my baby. I never will.
2007-10-16 (5 weeks)
I can't believe it still. I knew, but I didn't know. You know? At first, I thought it was another UTI sneaking up on me. I was going to the bathroom a lot and I felt plain exhausted. But this time, I wasn't ignoring food. i would at times, then I'd just consume it. At times, i got really hot in our house too where it's a comfortable 70 some degrees so I went outside to 60 degree weather. My mood was really crabby too and I had yet to start my period.
My husband was the one this time who saw other factors. He said I was moodier than I had ever been and that if it didn't burn when I peed, I could be pregnant. So last night, he bought a HPT. Nothing special, not a test that tested 5 days before your period or anything. He said to take it in the morning.
Well, my father in law has been visiting and we didn't really want anyone knowing we were trying to have a baby yet. So, I quietly tiptoed to the bathroom and took the simple test.
Didn't even have to wait three minutes and it was a SOLID positive! Both lines for the plus were solid!
So now, here I am. Pregnant. So many things to think about now. Right now, there are no signs that it is ectopic, so that makes me happy. And so far, I seem okay. I worry about MC, but I know the best thing for the baby is just to relax.
I would say I'm about two to three weeks along now, but I'm not real sure until we go see a doctor.
2007-08-13 (0 weeks)
It wasn't No, it wasn't. It wasn't great. Because the EXACT SAME THING is happening again! It's not real high and I caught it very early this time (no stinging or burning) , but this time I am wondering. Is it just a UTI? I've had another weird side effect I didn't have before. Some stuff I used to love to eat is just disgusting me now. Or, something I ate the night before just fine I can't stand the smell of now. (Oh and hamburgers? They stink to high heaven!) But there's just the fact I don't want to eat anything. Nothing. Why today I've had...cranberry juice. It's 3:01 and that's all I've had. So, could it be both?
I'm scared to take a pregnancy test right now. I had a period but it only lasted about 2 and a half days, on and off. And once again, that happened to me before. What if it's implantation bleeding? What if it's different bleeding? What if it's just an abnormal period again?
And if I took a test, is it too early?
So instead of the days just going by nicely with no pressure like the other times, I find myself worrying so much about it! I try not to, I know I shouldn't. And every time I bring the concept up, my husband thinks I'll be just fine and not to worry. So, if he thinks everything's fine he'll think I'm coo coo if I take a test. (He wants to be there after all, can't take it without him.)
Decisions, decisions. Meanwhile, the days are slowly going by...
2007-08-13 (0 weeks)
Introduction to me My husband and I have been conceiving for two months. It isn't real long, I know, but I've really wanted a baby for a long time. When we were still in college (Almost 2 years now) I hadn't even really THOUGHT about a baby or anything. We were just enjoying life together and I think we were still in our first year of marriage. Life was great, but then I started feeling very WeIrD! I really thought it was a baby! I was sick, I felt a presence in my abdomen, I was tired a lot.
I had been very scared at first, but my husband seemed to think it was all in my head. After he noticed my abdomen starting to swell (the genius he is) he didn't think it was a baby. Turned out, it was a UTI. But, I had started to enter a 'mommy mind' frame and I've never left that frame ever since.
Now, we live in a nice home and he has a steady career. Finally ready. I thought it would be great...
