Had my ultrasound today.  The baby was healthy and everything looked good, and we are still on track for a May 30th due date.

It was funny, because he is so active!  The lady doing the ultrasound had a hard time getting any pictures taken!  She finally told me she knew what it was, but she wanted to have it on the screen to show me when she told me.  Well he wouldnt open his little legs.  So she starts hitting my belly with the ultrasound wand saying "Baby, Open Legs" (she is a foreigner).  It was making me laugh.  Finally he opened his legs and she was able to show me.  I dont know how they can see that though!

Yes I cried.  I wanted a little boy so bad, I always have.  Now I have to work on a boy name!

Well my mother got her results back from her CT Scan.  The spot on her lung has grown, and there were two new spots.... so now both lungs are effected.  She has leiomyosarcoma, a rare form of cancer.  She is getting treatment at MD Anderson, and they already scheduled her for surgery for January 25th.  I got the news at work, and just cried at my desk.  I need to get moved back home quickly!

Havent been writing for awhile now..... got lazy over the holidays.

Well for my hairy stomach, I have been using my personal trimmer.  You can get one at Walgreens for like $9.99, I think its really for facial hair and the bikini area... but seems to work well on my stomach!  The fuzz is still there, but its not near as long now!

Going shopping for a bra today.  Being the smallest in my family, I have always bought the extra padded, add a cup, push up and way in to create cleavage type bras.  Well I dont guess I need as much help anymore, as my bras have so much padding there is no room for boobs!  I always thought I wanted some, but now that I have them... they seem cumbersome, get in my way, etc! 

I still havent felt the baby move... well at least knowingly!  I think my stomach has so much fat padding that I cant feel anything!  Last Doctor's visit, the nurse told me that the baby was very active... to the point of her being unable to listen to the heartbeat for any length of time because he/she kept moving so much!

I find out the sex of the baby this coming Thursday.  I cant wait!  I havent bought any baby things yet, but once I find out I bet thats where my paycheck will be going!

Ive only had one person predict a little girl for me.  Everyone else seems to think its a little boy.  This morning, I had a dream that I had a black headed fat little boy.  Which is what I have always wanted..... but with my redhair, dont know what will pop out!  The father does have a lot of american indian blood... so maybe that will come into play!

Went to "Meet the Pediatricians Night" last week.  Figured I will just use the group of pediatricians there in the same office as my OB/Gyn.  Plus, they are the pediatricians that will be on hand at birth, as their offices are connected to the hospital.  I couldnt believe some of the questions the other parents-to-be were asking!  I thought a lot of things were just common sense... but apparently not!  Everyone else in there looked like they were ready to go into labor at any minute!  There I sat barely at 5 months!  It wasnt as bad as I thought it would be attending without a partner/husband, etc.

No news from the "father", he still seems to be lying low.  But Im slowly getting to the point that I just hope he lies low forever!   It would be nice to receive a little financial assistance from him, but I dont want to share my baby with him.  I know he helped create half of it... but he didnt want it to begin with, so I figure its all MINE now!!!!

Ill update next week after I find out the sex!

I am always shaving, tweezing, plucking, etc...   Ive never considered myself a particularly hairy person, but here lately.... I think I even saw a happy trail!!!

IM afraid when its time to breastfed that my poor baby will be gagging on hair, if I dont keep plucking every single day!

Is this normal?  Is there anything I can do to lessen the amount of time I spend removing unwanted hair from my body??  Thoughts or suggestions would be appreciated.

Well the sperm donor emailed me to let me know he was really thinking about all this.  I guess I dont understand what there is to think about....  I decided immediately the moment I saw a positive test result.  He's still thinking about it after 4 months????

Anyway, a co-worker is predicting a little boy for me.  HE thinks I will have a boy, because I have issues with men, and this will help give me insight.  I guess I can groom the perfect man for some undeserving girl one day.... 

Go to the doctor tomorrow to be screened for spina bifida and something else...   you know I cant remember anything these days!  I dont think I actually see the doctor, just have some blood drawn.