So I am nearing the end of the first trimester..only about 16 days to go.  A dear friend of mine told me the other day after I spent a good half hour complaining about HATING pregnancy that I should enjoy every minute because she would give anything to be pregnant with her kids again. To that I say "blow me".  I don't mean to sound like I am not happy about being pregnant and having a baby...I really am...I am just so tired of gagging all of the time, feeling seconds away from hurling at any given moment, and feeling so bloated that at times I think I might just float away.  So see ya first trimester, and don't let the door hit you on the way out.  I have definitely noticed an "expanding waistline" which is just a really nice way of saying getting FAT.  I am ok with gaining weight for the benefit of another, in fact I think that is one of the perks of pregnancy.  I am doing GOOD by eating and gaining weight.  Just call me Mother Teresa, I know I do :)  The only problem right now is that I am in between sizes...too big to button my pants but not quite ready for a stretchy waist band.  I'll probably just invest in some moo moo's and not worry about it anymore.  If I were really honest with myself I think I would find that the nausea is improving a little teenie tiny bit.  I sincerely hope it ends soon. I registered online for some baby stuff the other day in hopes that it would make this a litte more realistic for me.  I don't think it worked but I did pick out some cute things.  I just don't feel like there is really a baby in there. I know there's something different about me, Im sick, my boobs hurt, when I contract my muscles to hard I have sharp pain in my pelvis, I pee all of the time, and this ultrasound machine claims there is one in there, and yet it just doesn't seem real.  I am thoroughly indifferent and hoping that too ends soon.  anywho, thats about it for now. 

well, I just typed about a page and half long entry that was full of interesting facts and stories but babycrowd is a worthless website and now it's gone.

so in sum....I have a been terribly nauseous with occasionally barfing since week 7.  Started a new job which I like so far, had my first prenatal visit and ultrasound at week 8 and my due date is officially October 14th.  I am going to attempt this again another time.

Ok, so this entry is going to have very little to do with baby and much more with mommy.  I passed my national certfication exam today at 1:30 pm.  I have been a combination of farty nerves for the past 2 days.  This test was difficult, I thought I might be failing at moments and at others feeling pretty confident.  The final moment before the screen displayed my results were so intense I think my heart rate was up to about 180 and baby was probably wondering what was going on. 

I have been a tinsy bit queezy over the past few days but for the most part feeling fine.  We leave for our ski trip on Sunday and I have a lot to do before we leave. My last day of work at Saint Francis is Saturday. There a LOT of changes in my life right now....happy wonderful changes.

So it seems that I have fallen pregnant.  That's a funny way of putting it, but it's how the Ausie's say it and I love Ausie's.  It kind of sounds more like you tripped and fell on some man's penis and woops you got pregnant.   This journal is an attempt to capture many of the feelings and details of my very first pregnancy.  It is also created to share with my friends and family. 

So to begin let me give you some background info.  My husband, Waylon, and I have been married for 3 years (4 next month).  We got married at 23 and have accomplished quite a bit in our marriage, careers, and well what else is there? :)  Having children was never something that my husband, shall we say, innately desired, but marrying me meant that children were inevitable.  I recently graduated from Frontier School of Midwifery and Family Nursing with my Master's in Nursing (Family Nurse Practitioner).  Waylon and his dad (PeePa) own an art gallery that will be set in a new location starting April 1st.  These two work VERY hard at making Lovett's gallery, truely, the most amazing art gallery in Tulsa. 

Ok I think that's enough to get you up to speed.  So I am going to have a baby.  I realize that  miscarriage is still a very real possibility.  Approximately 1 in 10 chance but I am optimistic.  I know that if a pregnancy doesn't keep that most likely there was something so severly wrong that life wouldn't be worth the pain and suffering so  you just suck it up and try try again. 

I am so incredibly happy.  I am SOOOOO HAPPY!!!! this is probably going to be one of the most exciting and rewarding adventures of my life.