Ok I am 13 weeks pregnant and officially in the 2nd trimester.  All of the books say that I should start to "pop" any week now.  They also fortold that my pregnancy sickness would end soon. I am going to go ahead and stop counting on that seeing as my very first weekend in the second trimester was spent in bed, more nauseate than EVER, and barfing up every single meal I ate.  Besides that though its been a barrel of monkeys.

So on to my dream.  I had a crazy baby delivery dream last night. I was in California at some weird Organic Hospital..seriously that was the name in my dream.  I was in a room by myself and I for some reason couldn't get a hold of anybody. Waylon was gone, my mom was nowhere to be found and I couldn't find my cell phone to call anyone else.  So all I remember is knowing I had just given birth and the placenta was still left in (this dream is not for the squeemish) so I had to pull it out myself...I then started bleeding and I couldn't stop it finally I called the nurse in to help me.  Everything was fine and when I found a phone I called someone female (I don't remember who) and told them that everything was fine and I had a baby girl.  I then went to sea world and after that Oktoberfest.  So anyway that was it. 

I had my second doctors appointment today at 1:30.  My mom came with me today and it was a really nice and easy visit.  I've gained 2 lbs since my last visit for a grand total of 6 lbs since January.  We talked about genetic screening a little bit...mostly I think it's probably over rated and useless.   I might find out that there is no down's syndrome but that doesn't mean the baby won't be born with some other disease or malformation...and no matter what I find out I am pretty sure termination is out of the question. So I nixed that and we moved on to the dopple and goo.  My obstetrician found my uterus right above the pubic symphysis (right were it should be a 12 weeks).  She then lubed up my belly and within about 3 seconds I heard the most beautiful sound.  It was fast and loud and strong and it made my smile stretch from ear to ear.  I don't know why but more than the ultrasounds or anything else I have anticipated finding fetal heart tones.  The heart rate was 156 (my mom and I had a bet before on what it would be...my guess was 153 and hers was 160).  My next appointment is in a month and I'll be 16 almost 17 weeks.  I don't think I get to find out what the sex is until the visit after that though. 

I had a definite love moment for the baby today.  There is a song called Capri by Colbie Caillat and the opening line is "she's got a baby inside, and holds her belly tight".  Ok the story here is that before I knew I was pregnant my mom and I were driving around one night and she was trying to find her favorite song on this album but for some reason she kept landing on this song....literally she did it about 6 times until she finally found the song she wanted.  I thought to myself that night that it would be weird if I really was pregnant because of the fateful persistance of this song on her stereo.  So it turns out I was pregnant which we realized the other day when we heard the song again.  For some reason today in the car the words to this song made me super weepy.  It's a song she wrote for a friend who was pregnant with a little girl that she would name Capri.  So I am not trying to imply that I think I'm having a girl but listen to this song and have a nice cry.  Or just listen to it and think to yourself "oh my god Rachel is hormonal".  Whichever you do..enjoy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uPcoN0yBHUQ

I am so afraid to type this next phrase for fear that I will commit the ultimate jenks and owe myself a coke for life....but here goes anyway...I think I MIGHT be getting over SOME of the first trimester nausea.  Let us never again call this morning sickness.   Oh no this term was created by a male physician, no doubt, that hoped if he called it "morning" sickness his pregnant patients would complain less because he tricked them into thinking that this could only happen in the early hours of the morn.  Sick bastard.  My appetite is improved and I only gag about 8 times per night as compared with the past few weeks 20-40 per night with an occasional up chuck.  I am starting to show a belly. It's hard to say if its not just fat or bloating but I do feel a hard little bump right above my pubic bone...huh huh I said pubic.  I have my second appointment this friday.  I think it's going to be short and sweet, a simple weighing, blood pressure and the fun part is they are going to goo and doppler my belly to find fetal heart tones.  My mom is going with me this time because to be honest I think she'll get more out of it then old hubbo.  I think he is probably going to be pretty desensitized until this little "bean" (as my friend Jessica calls "it") pops out. 

The new gallery opened yesterday and they aren't quite set up for business.  Waylon, his dad, and family have been up there everynight until about 11 or 12 working to get things in working order.  It is going to be fabulous when they're done. 

I had a big day today at work...I had my first patient ALL BY MYSELF.  Because he was my one and only patient I got to spend a good hour and 45 minutes with him (which by the way he needed every second of).  Anyway he was a good challenge for me and I felt like I might have really helped him.  One final thought I want to share is something that my boss's wife said to me today.  I can tell it's going to stick with me for the rest of my life.  She said to me that she was talking to her husband about me the other day and she said that I am coming upon the most wonderful time of my life (funny I thought that happened in college).  She said that I have just started a brand new exciting career and I am about to become a mother.  She said that everything up to this point in my life will pale in comparison to what is just around the corner.  How exciting.  Anyway, i have't been thinking about my future with much enthusiasm so it was really inspriring and uplifting to hear someone on the outside of my life looking in give some me some life props.  Holla.  later