sweet after my 2nd pee test this morning... yep, i said "sweet"
DH told me he wanted a solid line, well, that's what we gave him this morning. he said it's not dark enough...and he said i coloured it on (yesterday's and today's!).
anyway, he says it's not sinking in yet. for me it is though. i'm ecstatic!
so far, the smells are definitely stronger. i would put down money that our fedex guy had a bolony sandwich before he got to our office yesterday. the worst is that my coworker burned her toast...really really bad. so i felt like our little one was suffocating. hopefully it didn't do any damage. he/she probably isn't at that stage yet...
so i made a dr's appt for friday Feb 22 at 12:30pm. i'm really hoping to hear some really good news. i would be devastated if we loose our little one.
mommy already loves you so much! and i'm sure daddy and puppy do too
37.09
Unbelievably, i have more to write!
i wanted to finish writting about what i've felt so far. i've felt my jeans actually fitting me, as of yesterday, and that's weird. my jeans are always too big (even though i wear the smallest size possible!). Monday night, DH and i had an arguement over something really stupid - getting a new tub. near the end, i sat down and had a crazy pain in my lower left side for a few seconds - what was that?! Also, i have to pee more in the mornings... mostly as of yesterday....a lot more in the mornings. and things taste gross to me in the mornings. i cut up kiwi and ate some first thing at work...it burned my tongue! what? how?! that's probably something aside from the pregnancy thing...but weird. anyway, no food really appeals to me right now. everything sounds gross and pretty much tastes gross (other than animal crackers and strawberry yogurt...and the salad i had today at lunch with half a grilled cheese). the pizza we had last night was way too salty (green olives), and spicy (weird).
tonight i'm going to have rice with something...maybe chicken fingers. i know, it sounds like everything i eat is junk food. it sucks cuz i'm trying SOOO hard (and have been since after our honeymoon) to eat properly. the funny (well, bad...) thing is that yesterday i noticed all the horrible things i ate on the weekend.
saturday night - chinese food (probably loaded with msg), and half a nanaimo bar with chocolate drizzled on top - well, the bar includes raw egg!
sunday afternoon - i had a BLT, minus the B...but with miracle whip (which i read today is pasturized egg so apparently it's okay...i'd like to ask my doc though), and a slice of tomato with Herbamare spice on it (includes seaweed!)
sunday night - left over chinese food
could i have eaten anything worse in the last couple days? (not to mention all kinds of burned toast smoke) if the baby survives this, he/she is going to be a real trooper.
another thing i've noticed is all last week, except friday, i've had to wear my glasses at work. my eyes have been burning. i thought the office was sucking the moisture out of them. now i realize why...my whole body is being sucked dry *L*...so i've been drinking more water (well, a lot more than what i normally drink...but probably still not what i SHOULD drink)
ALSO, DH and i are trying to come up with a cute way of telling everybody. i really think we should put t-shirts on my niece and nephew (my nephew's b-day party is March 9 so we're going up there and one of my bro's will be there with his wife, along with my parents of course...so that COULD be perfect... except, there will be other people too...hmmm) The other thing that's sucky is that my grandma won't be there :(
wow, so much to say...hopefully i don't do this too often. it's just still so surreal. this afternoon, i questioned it cuz i didn't feel hungry/thirsty or the urge to pee so much. i do have a bit of pains here and there though, so that's a good sign (i would think...?). i bet i'm going to go crazy not doing a pee test (my beautiful pee sticks! i look at them everytime i go upstairs! haha!) tomorrow. i want to see the lines get darker *L*...but i need to save my money. i'll just have to wait until friday.... ohhh the agony! *L*
that's all for today :) (oh ya, and i could totally cry everytime i realize there's a baby growing inside of me... awwww :)
2008-02-19 (3 weeks)
IT'S POSITIVE! ("duuuudeeee") (this is my right of passage to be on this website. haha)
i'm in awe right now. my temp went up this morning and i was SO sure i was getting my period. i had a pad on last night too cuz i thought i could feel it coming. so i take my temp this morning, expecting it to drop some more, but what do i see?! 37.06! it went up.
i thought...hmmm... should i take a test? i grabbed the pack i just bought on saturday (my mom looked at me with a sparkle in her eyes, and i said no it's for later...i already took one and i'm not) and thought, well, maybe it's too early. so i looked at my chart and tried counting what DPO i was at... hmm... 15...or 16... let's check fertility friend. so i hopped online and i was at 15 DPO. well, i what else did i buy the test for? i might as well check! so i went into the bathroom, opened the box...took out a test... tapped it on the palm of my hand a couple of times. should i? shouldn't i? okay.
then i counted to about 2 and a half minutes....
"duuuuudeeeee" i said when i saw a faint 2nd pink line. haha!
i ran to get DH's father's day star wars card that i bought last year - darth vader says "i am your father" and wrote (shakingly) "i think we're going to have a baby." i ran upstairs, woke up DH and said, _____ wake up, i have something for you.... he tried opening the card (i had to help him unseal it cuz he was soooo tired hahaha), and read it.... oh he took forever to read it.... he looked at me, kind of confused. i showed him the test and i'm not sure if he could see the line (i think he was still adjusting to the light) but he looked pretty happy and skeptical at the same time *L* He said, "i'm excited, but don't get your hopes up just yet." i said i no, and started to cry and gave him a hug.
is this real?
i'm kind of skeptical too...cuz...really? could this be happening? finally? but i'm also SUPER EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hope i can make this baby healthy :) i already feel like a dork cuz i had dessert with raw egg in it on sunday night! and chinese food sunday night and last night - with msg in it probably!!! ahhhhh! figures... i just really thought it wasn't going to happen this month. i'm so glad it's happening though... i feel like crying again
oh ya, and DH said to me "you know, i have some say in this too and we're not telling anybody for months" haha... well, i think we'll end up telling at least my parents. i'd like to tell my sister and my grandma...but i think my grandma might tell her sister and so on...haha. anyway, i'm going to take another test tomorrow morning and then make a doctor's appointment. or will i end up making one today.... hmmmm...?
2008-02-18 (3 weeks)
36.74 & tomorrow is the visit so aunt flo comes tomorrow. i suppose i'm ready for her. i had some more twinges in my lower right side but i guess they don't really mean anything. my bbs were a little tender not yesterday, but the day before. today my nppls are less sore than they have been (my temp is going down, so i guess all that coincides).
i think i am still going to chart. might as well. at least it tells me when i'll get my period so i don't have to be in the dark with that.
i know aunt flo is coming tomorrow cuz i took a test on Feb 14 (silly me... of course i cried a bit cuz it was negative. i probably shouldn't have taken one but i thought, how cool would it be if...?!), and also cuz my temp is slowly dropping. tomorrow i'm assuming it will be about .10 degrees lower (36.64). if it bounces back up, i'd totally have a heart attack.
that's all for now.
2008-02-14 (2 weeks)
happy v-day! so my temps went up a touch. 36.99, but i checked earlier this morning cuz i wasn't sure if i'd fall back asleep.
this morning i felt completely exhausted. i didn't think i slept that bad. i had pulling in my lower right side again briefly this morning, and now i have cramps and am a little gassy
tonight should be good. DH is super sweet - 8 roses (my fave number is 8), and a Wii game (from my puppy, apparently ;) We're going to order in some Swiss Chalet and watch Survivor (i know, that's not the most romantic tv show! but it'll be nice to sit with my DH)
