dresser finale the rest of the dressers get pieced together today...DH has a half day so he might end up doing a lot of what's left before i get home.
no more leakage last night or today... hmm.
2008-07-13 (24 weeks)
M is for Milk ... C is for Crib last night i had an AWFUL night trying to sleep. i was awake every hour. twice in tears b/c my back hurt sooo much and there are no other sleeping positions i'm supposed to be in! what the heck do you do with your left arm?! - that shoulder was getting so sore too. and my legs....
when DH got home last night from the concert, i was already awake. i mentioned to him that my boob was burning (it was the left one. TMI, i know). this morning, i got up fairly early... maybe 7ish (i was hoping i'd sleep until 9 seeing as last night sucked) b/c my back was still in pain. when i sat up on the bed, i saw a spot on the bottom sheet... what the?! it looked like a water stain but with a tinge of red in it. hmmm... my first thought were my boobs as that's about where they were on the bed, but i looked and didn't see any evidence on me...my second thought was my belly button piercing site - uh oh - but luckily that wasn't the case. i thought it was a little strange, but got up and ate breakfast. still curious, i checked out my tank top that i still had on...inside was a lovely whitish slightly crusted stain (TMI again!). okay, so it was my left boob... not my right one at all. it's funny cuz last night i was thinking about breastfeeding too - would i be able to handle it (i know it was painful for my sister and she couldn't do it any longer)?...would i have the determination? Before my shower, i went upstairs and looked at the stain again... and found 2 more spots (yes, i was very squirmy last night!)... and yes they do have a red tinge to them. that doesn't seem like a good thing. so i'm going to see what i can find on the internet. please hold.
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okay. that's reassuring - thankfully. here are my findings... (source: http://www.loveyourbaby.com/blood-in-breast-milk.html)
Blood in Breast Milk
It can be frightening to find blood in breast milk. The general reaction to blood in any situation is distress and concern. You may be worried that the blood signifies a serious medical condition or you may be nervous that the blood can hurt your baby.
In most cases of blood in breastmilk, the only treatment is time. There is usually not much pain, unless the nipples are cracked or injured, or the breast tissue is very tender due to engorgement.
The bleeding will not harm your baby and it is fine to keep breastfeeding. Blood in breast milk is not uncommon. In cases during late pregnancy or during the first weeks after child birth, the blood is usually due to broken capillaries and intraductal papillomas.
In some cases it may appear that there is blood in the milk when it is actually coming from a cracked or sore nipple . Your baby will not be harmed by swallowing this blood and it will pass through in your baby’s stool.
Causes of Blood in Breast Milk
“Vascular engorgement” or Rusty Pipe Syndrome
The blood is caused by slight internal bleeding due to increased blood flow and development of the breast tissue in late pregnancy and is most common in first time mothers. It is more common in both breasts though it can happen in one breast. It is usually painless. This form of blood in the breast milk has been nicknamed, rusty-pipe syndrome, due to the rusty color of the milk.
Broken capillaries
Rough handling of the breast tissues as seen in improper use of a breast pump has been known to cause blood in breast milk.
Intraductal Papillomas
Benign, harmless tumors in the milk ducts may cause bleeding. Such a tumor is usually only found in one breast and does not cause lumps that can be felt. Sometimes intraductal papillomas are painful. The bleeding usually stops on its own without any kind of treatment.
It can be reassuring to consult a medical doctor about finding blood in your breast milk.
The blood will not harm your baby and it is recommended to continue breastfeeding as usual.
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i would say since it appears that i have more vericose veiny looking things on my left boob that it is "rusty pipe sydrome." i'll still try to remember to mention it to my OBGYN, who we meet on thursday. i have a kleenex in my left bra cup now...just in case. all i can say is INCOMING!!!
YESTERDAY
regarding my naval piercing, yesterday was a bitter sweet day. i was losing more surface area, as a stringy piece of skin (i'm assuming), came off in the shower. i said to DH that i should probably take it out. i felt it was time. who knows what would happen if i left it in...would my skin break in half eventually and i would be left with a flap (*L*...that's what DH said. gross)? it was very frustrating trying to remove the beads that i made sure to put on quite tight on wednesday night (took me 40 minutes!). finally DH asked if i wanted to just cut the silicone barbell and i said the thought crossed my mind. less frustration that way. DH was washing his hands to help me, but i couldn't wait, and i was scared for him to pull on the ring by accident so i cut it myself. i felt, and still feel, like it was a good decision (although sad, as i realize i'll probably never have a piercing there again). i told DH i'm most likely going to have scars... i believe i will. hopefully it's not as bad as what it looks like it could be. yikes!
we borrowed DH's parents' van yesterday to pick up our crib & dresser (yep, they shipped us a whole new dresser!). we also met Ada & Jea at Coney Island for lunch - which was smoke free! woohoo! i was worried i'd have to turn around and walk outta there. i had a pancake and scrambled eggs. mmm. then it started pouring rain... anyway, they helped DH and i pick up our parcels (we also had one to pick up for DH's mom...well, really for his sister). and luckily we didn't have to pay any duty. Ada helped DH carry them upstairs, and then they left and DH and i removed the dresser. so pretty much the same pieces shipped to us marked up, or with loose pieces attached to them. that's a bummer... so we opened the crib box too, and we were shocked at the mess in that box! i took pictures of how badly packaged it was...everything inside was shifted! i said to DH "that doesn't look promising!" and that i'd have a heart attack if everything in there was perfect. ....and it WAS! pretty much! one piece with the biggest dent wasn't even too bad...we placed it at the bottom of the crib anyway. i wanted to put to the dresser together too but DH had to leave for work and he promised we'd put it together tomorrow.
BACK TO TODAY
i noticed this morning that i'm still losing surface area from where my piercing once was. ick. i hope this heals up nicely... i imagined everything just joining together and healing, but i think my body has other plans! i'm scared to see the result
about the dresser... i'm anxiously awaiting for DH to get up and get ready so we can put the dresser together. i hope it's not too bad with those damaged pieces. yesterday he tried calling the lady we've been dealing with and she's not in till monday, so he'll try again then.
anyway, gotta eat! i'm hungie. i know there's half a grapefruit in the fridge with my name on it! (or... with Sydney's name on it :)
by the way, i think Sydney's going to be a night baby! most of the time when i've woken up in the middle of the night, she'll start kicking. maybe it's cuz i'm awake, and that woke her though?
oh ya 24 WEEKS TODAY!!!! last night i told DH how crazy it seems that in 6 more weeks, i'll be 30 WEEKS!!!! that makes it seem so close! even though really, 6 weeks is still a month and a half *L*
2008-07-11 (23 weeks)
silent night so last night felt like a silent night... i haven't been feeling too many kicks from miss squirmy so when i laid in bed last night i decided to hum a tune, and silent night is what came to mind (and YA i'm looking forward to this Christmas! :) ....well it worked, Syd was kicking :) YAYYYYY :) maybe it was cuz i was so off-tune, but she'll get used to that.
today i was cleaning out my emails at work...seeing as i have just over 3 1/2 months left here... i came across one from the end of June that DH sent me about a 3 y/o girl talking about star wars (obi kenobi, she says)... so i played it here at work. as soon as i did, Syd started kicking... pretty much right after the video stopped, she stopped kicking. maybe she likes the high pitch of a 3 y/o girl's voice....it couldn't have been b/c it was about star wars...although DH says otherwise ;)
Syd... i felt you kicking quite a bit today, which definitely makes me happy :)
the lower part of my belly piercing is definitely divoting like the top did. if the surface area gets much smaller than it is now, i may just have to remove my piercing finally... sad... but what can you do? i tried, and i gave it my best shot.
2008-07-10 (23 weeks)
i feel like a bit of a mess right now they say pregnancy is beautiful...which it is in one way - the whole premise of it if beautiful. but right now, personally, i'm not feeling so beautiful *L* aside from my face has cleared up quite nicely. but now i'm having some other fun to deal with. one thing is my fault though... my belly piercing...
i'm missing a chunk / divot out of the top part of my piercing. not sure what happened there! i'm thinking it just shrunk from healing (or i'm hoping so!) after i put a smaller ring (barbell) back in there. i think it'll help - i definitely have my fingers crossed. i really don't want a deformed area at my belly button. i'm hoping my skin pigmentation will go back to normal and everything will be better. it's not as sore, and i haven't seen anymore puss (bleh, i know... stupid me for keeping my piercing... i'm blaming the long belly ring though, it got caught on so many things)
Sydney...i haven't felt you kicking lately... just a couple small kicks this morning, which made me feel better. i'm hoping to feel you moving around more often :) today and yesterday i feel like my tummy is smaller... i'm a freak, i know, i'm sorry *L* i think it's my new maternity clothes that i've been wearing... not my tight little t-shirts that probably accentuate my belly. just to help me out though, please give me a kick or two...now's your chance! better take advantage of it *L*
i feel like i need to gain more weight too...i feel like i'm at the low side of the weight gain charts. i'm working on it though... fruit just doesn't help me gain weight. i bought a bunch of stuff for some good meals (hopefully ;) but they'll have to wait until the weekend cuz DH won't be home for suppers until then.
last night when i awoke in the middle of the night (DH was snoring again...but it could have been the pain that woke me)i was in such pain in my lower back - the part just above my "glutes"...starts with an "s" and it's not sciatic nerve...it's the bones right near there.
andddd i have some crazy veins on my bbs... one actually looks like bit of a varicose vein :P not impressed.
i got a Nestle backpack in the mail today too (from Thyme Maternity) with a container of formula and a baby-on-board sign for the car. it's a nice little backpack / diaper bag - it's insulated and has a change pad in it and all kinds of neat compartments.
