Ok, so I am now constantly feeling sick - Craig and I went away for a few days, but I started feeling ill the day before we went, and because the weather was bad too, we came home early. I feel much better being at home, even though the nausea is nearly as bad. Yesterday was my best day so far, but today I had to have a lie in and get up late. (Also I hardly slept from 4.30am which doesnt help!).

My sister and Craig's brother plus a couple of close friends know, but we are keeping quiet with everyone else until I am further on or have had the first scan.  Its horrible keeping it from people, but I dont want to have to then tell everyone should I lose it, I think it's safer.

We have though been to Mamas and Papas to cost up everything for the nursery and the baby, they were great and we tried out prams and a baby car seat, so have decided on a five in one travel system which has a pram which doubles as a carrycot and with the stand as a crib for the first 3 months, a pushchair, car seat - everything fits on the one base which is great and is really easy to use and push around.

We have also chosen the cot for the nursery and are going to paint the pine furniture to match which will save some money (or more to spend on accessories!!!!)

I feel much more organised and cant wait to order everything, but that wont be for a few months yet, so that gives us time to save up.  It will be nicer to go back in the shop with a bump instead of people wondering why someone so skinny is trying out pushchairs!

On the boob front I have got up two cup sizes and still progressing!  How much bigger can they get???? I am going to get some new bras soon, as I am growing out of all of the bras I have!

Apart from that everything is pretty much the same, not too tired, just sicky and resting loads but back to work on Monday after my first appointment with the midwife.

Tracey

x x

Well we have finally been to doctors, it sounds strange but I feel like I have been waiting for weeks, as I knew I was pregnant so early on! She was totally amazing, letting us ask lots of questions and giving us loads of information, including telling me I have to completely rest up after losing the baby early last time. Im not worried about that happening again as I feel so different than last time, my symptoms have been around for weeks. 

My widwifes appointment is on the 11th September, cant wait for that, apparently I need to be there for about 45 minutes, there are tests to do and lots of paperwork, and then I should get booked in for my scan, which I cant wait for!

We are now away for a few days but I will make sure it includes lots of power naps! Mum and Dad are coming to look after my other babies, the cats, and it will be nice to go away and have cooked breakfast every morning with no washing up!

We have told my sister and Craig's brother, but not telling any other family members till we've had the scan (if we last that long!) I think it's safest that way. I am however telling people I dont even know  "is that home made mayonnaise?" to the waiter "oh no my husband will carry that" I'm pregnant! to the shop assistant.  I just want to start showing so everyone can see!!

I've had no cravings, although have eaten chips for 6 days running, which has thickened my torso rather alot, although I will blame that on the baby!  Morning sickness is nausea at 3am, and if I deep breathe it passes and I dont have to stick my head down the toilet!!!

Well I think thats all for now, apart from I am needing to buy a new bra, going from a 32A to watermelon size boobs is not great for my bra collection, but at least I get new ones!!!

Speak soon.

Tracey x x

Yesterday I had cramps all day, and then started worrying a bit, so went on the internet to find out whether I did in fact need to worry. Apparently they can occurr when the placenta attaches to the uterus, so assume that this is it as they have gone away again for now. (I probably dont know what I'm talking about but at least it stops me worrying!)

Today I am tired though, went out to dinner with Linda last night and had my first sign of nausea in the car, lots of heavy breathing and yawning in the car to stop myself puking (Craig is insistent on a good supply of carrier bags in the car from now on!!!). I was not sick though and by the time I reached my destination was feeling fine.

Linda kept asking, "is there any news" "anything you need to tell me?".  I felt awful saying no, but its too early to tell anyone. Her sister, an old friend of mine who I havnt seen for ages, had just told Linda she is 12 weeks pregnant, and we are all meeting up for dinner in a few weeks time. By then, I may feel that I can start telling people, and it will be especially nice to talk to someone who can give me some pointers about first time pregnancies (this will be her second baby).

Despite my tiredness I am feeling decidedly upbeat, excited and happy, and cant wait for my doctors appointment next week, and my two weeks leave from work - good job we didnt book a couple of weeks somewhere exotic - I may not have coped with the flight and the dodgy food! Instead we are staying at home, relaxing and spending time with each other and pottering about.

Anyway bye for now.

x x x

We are having a baby!!!!

Its all so surreal, I just knew I was pregnant as soon as I conceived but even after doing more tests I still cant quite believe it!

I woke up a couple of weeks ago with a crampy tummy and aching legs, but had dreamt that night that I had a baby girl, I just knew at that moment that I was pregnant.  We had only been trying that month, but we are obviously both super fertile and maybe I didnt need to do all that "legs in the air" thing after all!

Since that morning I have had a free boob job - they have been killing me, but hey - I have already gone up one cup size in a couple of weeks - Craig is loving it! However, sometimes they are so sore that it even hurts to have a hug from him. They are looking rather impressive though if I do say so myself - I have to keep looking at them, much to Craigs annoyance - especially when we are walking round Sainsburys!!

I am constantly peeing, a symptom which I've now found out happens during early pregnancy as well as later on, so am drinking alot, which helps a bit with the tiredness, although it's worse after lunchtime when I just want to crawl under my desk and sleep.

As for that there are no other symptoms, I am hoping to avoid the morning sickness so am taking pregnancy vitamins with ginger in them, everyone keep their fingers crossed for me!

I have already got my first pregnancy magazine and eager to get some maternity clothes, but will of course have to wait a few months yet (I'm sure I wont be eager when I am near my due date and feeling like a beached whale!), and Craig has been looking at all the handy nursery gadgets which we are sure we need but probably dont!

As for the docs, I have an appointment on the 29th August, next Tuesday, so looking forward to everything being a bit more formal.

Well this is probably the longest journal you will have to read, I will be updating with my thoughts and more info on my little grain of rice soon.

Lots of love

Tracey x x x