Pregnancy Journal

So......I tested on Friday, May 2. It was only day 27 of my cycle, but I had a feeling even though I have no symptoms. No nausea, nothing. However, one day last week when my hair was wet, I ran a comb through it and no hairs fell out. I remembered reading somewhere that pregnant women don't lose hair and that's why they lose so much after the baby is born. That was certainly the case with my first pregnancy. Lack of hair loss must be the silliest reason anyone ever thought they were pregnant! Also, there were a couple of days last week when I was weepy and emotional for no reason. But it wasn't until the comb thing that I really started to wonder. I went out on Friday morning and bought a test and took it in the afternoon. Edward, who will be 1 in a few days, was with me. Typical, since I have had company in the bathroom for several months. He was busy playing in the empty bathtub and didn't seem too impressed with the news when I told him he was going to be a big brother. I told him a few more times that day, and he just laughed. Cheeky monkey! Despite the test being positive, I was sceptical. I went out on Saturday and bought more tests. I bought a pack of 3 cheapie tests at the 99p store, and a Clearblue Digital test. I took the 3 cheapie tests on the Saturday evening and afternoon. All three were negative. Weird, I thought, but maybe my expectations were too high for bargain pregnancy tests. On Sunday morning, I did the digital test. It was postive and I was finally convinced that I am pregnant!

As for telling my husband. I've decided to wait and it's making me crazy!  Later this week we are going to Disneyland Paris for Edward's 1st birthday. That is where Gavin proposed to me and I thought it would be a really great place to tell him about baby #2. But that plan means I have to keep this a secret for a total of 6 days. I'm on day 4 already. It gets more difficult to act un-pregnant every day! I am trying to behave normally. Lucky for me, men aren't the most observant creatures on the planet. If I was nauseus, he'd probably guess, so I suppose it's good that I'm not. I just wish I had at least one little symptom. I'm a bit worried that I don't feel even a little bit pregnant. When I was pregnant with Edward, my morning sickness started at least 3 days before I tested. Oh well. I guess every pregnancy is different and I should stress myself yet. I'll make a doctor's appointment and get a referral to the midwife. I really really hope I get the same midwife I had before. I loved her, and missed her a lot after Edward was born.