Yesterday I went up to the hospital because I couldn't feel movement. So they put me on the monitor for a bit and the babies looked fine. So I went away happyish.

3 hours later I was walking into a shop and I tripped over. I fell down on my belly on the concrete.  The impact was pretty harsh and it knocked my glasses off.  Strangely no-one inside the shop or outside noticed, or at least no-one offered me any help.  I went back to the hospital very upset. They're going to think I am a hypochondriac.  They hooked me onto the machine again for about an hour and said everything looked fine. But now I am very worried. I still can't feel any movement.  I hope I didn't hurt the babies.  I felt some contractions overnight but nothing too strong.  I still have quite a bit of pain but the doctor told me to take panadeine for the pain and they'll see me again in 2 weeks.  They can't be too worried. But I am. I still can't feel any movement.

I didn't go to work today - my last day! So I'm sitting here feeling hot and sick and in pain.  Maybe I should have gone to work.  Emma is hopefully going to bring me my turtles tonight.  I don't want to leave them at school.  I like watching them swim. It just occurred to me that I have 2 dogs, 2 budgies, 2 turtles and soon 2 babies.  Double luck!

I'm so worried about my babies.  And so mad at myself for falling over. 

I am so tired.  Every now and then I get hit by a wave of exhaustion that is almost debilitating.  My shoulders ache and I can't lift my arms.  I am getting lots of spots in front of my eyes and my teeth are so sore I am taking Panadol every few hours.  I am so ready for them to be born.  Every day at school the kids ask me when are the babies coming out. I so want to know too. 

Tonight is my second ante natal class.  The first one was good and went through the first stages of labour and when to come to the hospital. The thing I want to know about is caesarean sections and that isn't until week 3.  When someone asked a question, she gave a quick answer and then told us where in the course it would come.

Today I am working from home. But I am so tired it is hard to sit here and type this.  I am going to go lie down again when I am finished here.  Sigh. So tired......

You'd think after all this time I would be used to the sick feeling.  But I'm not! I feel sick all the time.  Today my legs and arms feel so heavy.  I am working from home today because the chances of me actually making it to school are pretty small.  Just want to go hang over the toilet.

I am also amazed that days have become so much longer since I started getting a bigger bump.  I swear there are at least 36 hours in each day now.

Today my cot and car seats should arrive.  I put up wall stickers in the nursery last night and it looks very much like a baby's room now.  Everything in there is for the babies. All the other crap has been thrown out or put elsewhere. I'm actually quite impressed that i managed to do it.  I think I'm ready. Except I really dont know anything about babies. And now I'm worried about how I'll cope. Especially after Mum goes home. sigh....

Well we've made it to 32 weeks.  I truly can't believe it.  I'm nearly ready but the closer it gets, the less ready I feel.  I have sorted out all of the clothes. I have washed all of the newborn and 0000 clothes and put them in the dresser. I have lots of little onesies and singlets.  That's pretty much all they'll need in March and April.  I also have heaps of booties and bibs.  Yesterday i had a baby shower at work. It was supposed to be a surprise. I knew about it but acted surprised because I didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings.  I got some lovely presents and I now have about 500 nappies.  I'm sure I'll use them all in a few weeks.

They move alot now.  During the day Huey (C) moves heaps. Duey (S) tends to move around at night more.  Being further in I feel it less. The kids at school have been able to feel the movement and are getting excited. They have been asking me heaps of questions.  Darrian asked how the baby eats in there if I cant get food at the mouth.  I thought that was a great question to ask and tried to explain about the umbilical cord.  Sophia asked how they come out (knew that was coming eventually). I said it was magic.  What else can you say?

I am still at work for another 2 weeks.  I was supposed to finish at the end of next week, but the department wont let me finish then.  They said I had to start 6 weeks before my EDD and since that got changed I have to stay at work.  Luckily Heather (principal) is being great.  She is letting me do some work from home on Monday and said we can work out some other things I can do at home too. I feel a bit scummy because I'm not working very hard but I'm also glad I'm not because I feel very slow and tired and need to sit alot.  I am also having trouble with my sciatic nerve. I'll be walking along and suddenly feel like my leg is collapsing from under me. The pain can be mild to excrutiating.  Sigh.

I still feel sick but the reflux has stopped mostly since I started taking the Mylanta tablets.  Which is so nice because lying down is no longer painful. Yay.  Still having trouble sleeping though. Living on about 2 hours of broken sleep a night. I'm so looking forward to being semi comfortable again.