I'm a bit worried.  I have been very stressed recenly. In the last few days I have barely felt any kicks.  I'm not sure if that's normal or not.  When I lie down I can usually feel some form of movement. And I did have one kick this afternoon.  But some days they move so much I really worry on the ones I cant feel them. Like today and yesterday.

It is so hot at the moment. I am getting an air conditioner put in in a month so when I get back from holidays I wont be so hot in the bedroom.  Maybe I will sleep a little better. I'm hoping it will help the babies too as it will still be very hot in March.  I'm getting a reverse cycle so in winter we can have a nice warm room to get up into aswell.

I am lookingh pregnant now. It happened basically overnight.  Now I have got the waddle happening too as the bump is very heavy already. And I still have 3 months to go.  My OB changed my due date by a week so I am now one week less than I was before.  I'm not sure how that works but he said it's perfectly normal to have a few different due dates. So I'm now due on the 7th April.  I have christmas holidays until the end of January, then I'm working until the 18th Feb which is when I go officially on maternity leave.  Judging by how I feel at the moment I'm not sure they are going to be highly effective work days!

They are kicking and moving more and more and I love it.  Every one is like a gift. I especially like it in the evening because I think they are awake. The kicks are quite hard and I can watch my tummy jumping with each one.  It's great.  Makes me laugh so hard.

I had yesterday and today off and I feel much better and much more relaxed.  Still not sleeping much but I guess resting is better than nothing.  I'm waking up three or four times a night from very WEIRD dreams!  Lots of indigestion too. 

I have spent most of today watching Discovery Home and Health. Have watched several births, toddler taming, after the birth shows etc. Oh here it is, another kick.

I also emptied 2 boxes today back onto their proper shelf.  They have just been sitting in the bedroom for me to trip over for the last 2 weeks!  I feel such a sense of accomplishment! Very strange. Hopefully the nesting bug will hit me again on the weekend. I want to get my house in order before I go to Adelaide.  Only 2 and a half weeks to go.  I am really looking forward to going, even though I'll be sad to finish up with my class and school.  I was originally planning to start the year off next year but how I feel right now I'm pretty sure I'm not going to be able to do anything much if I do go back.

But 6 weeks holidays is very nice. I'm going to sit in my Mum's house and be waited on.  Also I am going to go shopping and buy everything I want for the nursery. So far all I have is a dresser, a book case, some toys and mountains of clothes (which people keep giving me!). I really hope they wont be offended but I'm going to give a lot away to the Red Cross. 

I still have an idea of what I want to do to the baby's room.  I'm tossing up whether or not to buy a bed (for Mum while she's here and visitors later on). I think it would be handy. I just dont want to fill the room up before I put in anything babywise. I need to measure it I think.

My best baby blunder so far - I over paid the painters. I paid them the invoice number rather than the cost amount! Hmmmm...  I want my brain back. But I'll settle for 2 beautiful babies.

I'll go now because they are moving quite alot. Especially the top one.  This morning all the movement was down below!

Last night I went to the doctor with shooting pains up my front.  It turns out it is constipation.  I'm glad I went because I felt better knowing all was OK and I got to hear their heartbeats on the doppler bopper.  I have been very stressed out the last few days so he also gave me 2 days off.  I wanted to relax so i got up at 5am!  But I can go back to bed anytime I want to today so I'm very happy.  I would like to spend some time with my class though as I have spent the last three days setting up the new computers and stuff.  I'm so sick of everyone blaming me when things go wrong, but I get no appreciation for what I do do.  Feels like that anyway.  I need to relax.

I saw a great show on National Geographic on Sunday night. It was computer generated but showed the baby in the womb right from conception to birth. I saw what they can hear and see and feel and when it all happens. It was great.  While I was watching I had my hand across my belly and got a huge kick that I felt from the outside! It was very cool.  I love feeling them kick and move around.  I think its my favourite sensation ever.  I just wish they'd do it more.  I think they sleep all day and only wake up for an hour in the evening.  I'm sure that pattern wont continue once they are born!

This afternoon (after school) I spent 2 hours doing work that definitely does not fall under the jurisdiction of my job description.  I am still fuming.  I had to fix a whole bunch of problems that were caused by someone incompetent who thinks they know what they are doing.  I will be so glad when this computer roll out is finished and I get to do some of my real work again.  While I was doing this stuff I was supposed to be writing reports. So they better not ask me tomorrow how my reports are going.  I didn't leave school till 5:15.  So I was late picking up the dogs (who got their summer haircuts and now look adorable!) and missed the man who was coming to take away my fridge. I am furious. 

I feel very stressed out and am starting to worry that it will affect the babies.  I have only felt a few isolated kicks today.  I dont feel them all that much at all and I'm starting to get worried about it.  Surely I should be feeling them a lot more by now.  I also drank almost a litre of coke because I felt so stressed out. I know that isn't good for them but I just cant cope.  My OB appointment got moved so I dont see him until 6th December.  I really want confirmation that everything is OK. I still feel sick all the time. My hands hurt. My back hurts. My teeth hurt. My nose bleeds everytime I blow it - my mum (who lives 1500 kms away!) says I blow it wrong.  How else do you blow your nose???

The painters have finished in my house (YAY!) but it really stinks (BOO). I have had the cooler on since I got home so hopefully the bedroom will be OK tonight. The couch is so crowded and uncomfortable. 

So I'm moody and irritable. Yep definitely pregnant.  I have had some weird dreams though. Very weird.  I'm most worried that the babies will die and I wont know it.  They hardly move so how would I know anyway.  As long as they are in there I would still have the symptoms.  So worried.  Very anxious. Need to relax a bit. OK a lot. How do I do that?