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has anyone here been below 75 pounds?
if so how?
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Name: gramma | Date: Jun 11th, 2007 6:16 PM
Hi milkoginger, I think the mother in me is coming out...Are you saying that you want to get below 75 pounds? Are you looking for help in doing this? I hope no one on this site helps you do that. Can we try to turn this around for you to try and get better, not sicker? That is what I'm trying to use this site for, to get better. If you ar thinking..Oh, easy for her to say because Gramma has been in the illness for 23 years, don't kid yourself! If you keep striving for the lower and lower weights you won't make a milestone anywhere near 23 years. I don't want this noose hanging around my neck anymore, not even one more minute. It sucks being run by an ED. I want a normal life so bad and I'm happy to say that it's been 2 days of since my last ED episode. I'm taking those 2 days and holding them close to my heart hoping that I'm on my way to saving myself. I only hope that you can catch that fever. I wish you well... 

Name: milkoginger94 | Date: Jun 12th, 2007 8:46 AM
hiya gramma, yeah i do wanna be below 75 pounds i wanna be below 89 right now, and i hate feeling so fat, i am @ the end of my tether with this now and i wanna give up i cant deal with this anymore, i hate me, i hate my life, nothing seems real, its like a dream, like nothing matters, well actually its like a nightmare.
I just wanna be thin, thats all i want. and i cant be no matter how hard i try its never good enough for myself.
I just want to die, and forget everything.
I hate living and i hate being fat.
I am 16 soon an this has been going on since i was about 13 and i dont know how much more i can take, i want to keep my ED i feel safe and i know i can lose more, but i dont want the depression and everything, its a love hate realtionship.
ARGH I AM JUST SO TIRED *cries*
xxxhugsxxx 

Name: gramma | Date: Jun 12th, 2007 11:30 AM
WOW, Milkoginger! I guess I am pretty surprised at the extent of your illness and I'm so sorry that you are so deep with in it's grasp. Where is your mother in all of this turmoil? Dad? Have you got any support at home? I don't have to tell you that this is pretty serious stuff, you seem like a very knowledgeable young woman. I understand the need to be thin and attractive but you seem to have lost the ability to tell the difference. 75 pounds on the average 16 year old girl is NOT attractive, it is a visual symptom of your illnes and everyone who see you knows what you are doing. A lot of these people will stare at the sad thin girl and others will quickly look away. Please eat today. 

Name: kasland44 | Date: Jun 12th, 2007 3:47 PM
yes, I know poeple who have went below this weight, and how did they do it , they died. Your body gives up on you and you lose , sorry your at this place in your life it a tough road back i hope you can make it 

Name: milkoginger94 | Date: Jun 12th, 2007 9:02 PM
thank you very much gramma, for what you said. (not sarcasim)
yeah i do have a mum and a dad @ home, but they dont understand whats going on in my head, they dont know the truth about how much i eat, how much exercise i do etc etc. they dont know my feelings either.
they try to support me as best they can but sometimes my mum can be a bit odd, she sometimes says things like "i never wanted you to go to councelling in the first place" "do you wanna be a nutter or something" and she always reacts in a weird way.
they dont understand and sometimes i feel like screaming out, YOU DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT I GO THROUGH EVERY SINGLE DAY!
have you ever been hospitalized?
i know this is a bit cheeky but do you have an email address?
stay strong babe.
xxxhugsxx 

Name: kasland44 | Date: Jun 12th, 2007 10:44 PM
i guess your story hit a little to close to home, i was the one who was 75 pounds, and i really did feel like death, and the strange part is i am afraid of dying but here i am still killing myself. and the sad part is i am just now after 11 years starting to realize i need to start fighting 


Name: gramma | Date: Jun 13th, 2007 11:25 AM
Yes, milkoginger. Email me at [email protected]
It sounds like your mom and dad aren't quite sure how to deal with your illness. A hard thing for kids to remember is that their parents, all parents, are JUST people. We all begin our lives the same way. A clean slate, and I don't think there is any situation presented to us in our growing up years that would sufficiently prepare us to be able to deal with a beloved daughters anorexia. I'm sure that denial is a big part of their game right now. Give them a chance. Educate them best you can, if you can. But above all, you've got to know that they are the 2 people on God's green eath that love you unconditionally and do not want to lose you to this illness.
Eat today babe, and email me when you can. 

Name: Ashlea 88 | Date: Jun 14th, 2007 4:19 AM
hey hunny its ashlea
come online sweety you added me but i never see you on there? tell me a time sweety and i will try to be there for you and help you through this..
ashlea88 

Name: milkoginger94 | Date: Jun 15th, 2007 7:20 AM
thanks ash, thats really schweet of you, well i am out tonight, but maybe monday at like 6 i will come on msn yeah?
xxxhugsxxx 

Name: ally | Date: Jun 19th, 2007 9:03 PM
will i lose wait if i dont eat for a week? the truth please 

Name: asmall | Date: Jul 13th, 2007 3:22 AM
sugar you don't want to go there.. im back at 92.. but im 5'5.. this is ridiculously hard.. 

Name: milkoginger94 | Date: Jul 13th, 2007 5:45 PM
i do though, i hate being this fat lump.
argh. 

Name: kamala | Date: Sep 18th, 2007 9:36 AM
HI there!
I have been below 75 pounds. I'm 150 cms tall & have been 55 pounds. I felt like I was walking on air!
If you want to know how I did, well I'll tell you how - I grazed all day & took ages to eat anything so it made me feel like i was eating heaps more than I was actually eating. I was eating around 900 calories a day. I think if I stayed that weight i sure would have died. Luckily I started eating more & increased to around 1700 cals a day & gradually gaining around 4 pounds a month till I got to 77 pounds & maintained it for about 2 months & then lost it all again. The cycle starts all over again.
I am now just below 74.5 pounds. 

Name: Vanny | Date: Oct 1st, 2007 12:30 AM
Kamala: wait you lost weight from eating 900 cal?? how long did it take you to lose that weight then? i'm having around 300 a day rite now; 900 sounds like a lotta food to me. please share with me what you did please! 

Name: kamala | Date: Oct 8th, 2007 2:57 PM
Well I did alot of exercise, but it was mostly treadmill walking, I didn't eat any more than 20g of fat a day & I think as I remember it took a pretty long time like maybe, a kilo every 2 - 3 months. 

Name: kamala | Date: Oct 8th, 2007 3:04 PM
Hang on.....now that I think back it was more like 1 kilo every 4 - 6 weeks. 

Name: Vanny | Date: Oct 18th, 2007 11:51 PM
ooch, mcr-rock, nice of you to encourage getting help, but with the whol i-dont-care-if-you-die-thing..err yaa a bit harmful to say and makes your entire statement a complete oxymoron 

Name: Vanny | Date: Oct 18th, 2007 11:52 PM
oh and thnx kamala ^^ 

Name: mizzy | Date: Oct 19th, 2007 12:58 PM
u dnt wnt to knw
thats a sign of a disorder hlp urslef nw
b4 its 2 l8 

Name: SKMD | Date: Mar 4th, 2008 6:37 PM
personally i wundtgo below 75 pound but wudnt tht just b way sweet though, i can see how the idea of it is exciting but i think thts too much weight lost, but count ur self lucky, im 119 pounds atm! i no omg fat, im trying to get down to 90, fast fast fast, if u ever wanna speak [email protected] and oh yh, i just threw my dinner away ha ha ha wooo happy me! 

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