HEY -
Im 22 also but not married yet.. Ive had bulimia for 4 years and anorexia for 7.. it has gotten so bad I wasnt able to apply to grad schfool and m ylife is totally taken over. I went into inptaient therapy in janurary and then out patient in feb but I couldnt stop... i realized it was becuase I was so scared of the weight gain that I just could not allow myself to recover. Now 8 months later Ive relapsed worse then before.. but I realize thast now Im at a very low weight and I like the weight.. but im scared to gain weight so I wont start eating.. and I binge and pugre so much that I can barely pay rent.. I feel so in adiquate I want my life back....
I thought how could I ever get better and now Im going back to IP.. but this time i have my parents support, my boyfriends support and a better additute about recovery.
One thing I learned is that is it VERY hard to stop the bulimic cycle... going in patient makes you stop the cycle of purging and heps you back oin track then when you leave you continue therapy each week and have your family around for support and truly believe that you can do it and yOU WILL... that is my advice,
I tell myself now that once I can stop this cycle I can do it, i dont care if I gain weight ( even though I do Im trying to change my thinking) and I just want my life. You can maybe tell yoruself, I want to be a good mom, I want to be a good whatever- helps to get you through the refeeding process.
check it out on line there are WONDERFUL places to go, see if your insurance can cover it,
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Marianna what kind of life style do you have? I have had bulimia for 10 years. I became pregnant unexpecticly and had my baby two months ago and I was able to control the disorder during my pregnancy but it has been a week since I fell back in it, you are right, you need to become healthy for yourself before you have children. My question is order to figure out what do you do, what habits do you have, what makes you happy and what not... ↑ |