So for the last few months my relationship with my unborn baby's father has been...very rough. In the beginning i didn't understand why he was treating me so badly, but after almost ALL of my friends and family told me that it started once my ex stopped paying me childsupport. I realized that the first six months we were together I aid almost every bill. except for a very small amount from him to help with rent. he has had no job since i met him, and refuses to get one. Once i lost my job and stopped getting that money from my ex bills couldn't be paid and he began to change. become very verbally abusive and even mean to my daughter, which was the last straw for me. we have been broken up for about a month now...the only problem is we still live together, because neither one of us has the money yet to leave. I am...so very stressed out. I have only been able to gain 2 pounds my entire pregnancy. The doctors told me that the baby was under developed for it's age and that i need to eat more and stay calm, but it's very hard when my home life is so rough. I don't know what to do. I feel overwhelmed by everything. But most of all i feel so betrayed by him. My last relationshio was a disaster as well...and i ended up giving birth alone and raising our daughter alone, and I'm so upset because I realize that that's going to happen all over again. It's so hard for me to get through the day. I have no car to get away, and although my daughter and i try to walk a lot it's freezing cold and I don't want her to get sick....I just need some words of encouragement. I feel ike everything is falling apart and I'll never be able to pick up the pieces again. ↓
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