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im 13 ihave bi-polar disorder and depression...the kids at school tease me CONSTANTLY everyday it's something new. ihave been spat on pushed down in crowed halls and even had my hair cut. But istarted too iguess become pretty so some of the stuff started to stop. I met my bf while iwas 6th grade at a new school...he was in 8th. He was the only guy who did not make fun of me at school. I'm not in 8th and he's in 10th we had sex..huge mistake ifelt so dirty. after we did it ithought he would just leave me but he didnt that made me feel alot better. but now for the pass 2 weeks ihave been throwing up in the morning im very tired and my period is 3weeks late itld my mom and she didnt freak out..but ifeel soo horrible im a huge disappointment better yet a failure..iget straight a's in school play every sport i'm in gifted (a class for the above average students) im ranked #1 currently in my 8th grade class i am a part of the national junior beta club..&ihave might just ruined it all...idnt think icould handle abortion to emotional ihave already made 3 attempts on my life...ilive in a poor neighborhood in chicago iwas the only one in my home who looked like might have a positive future and be the first to go to college but imessed up big time...idk what to do im lost and ijust wanna give up on life. it's hard enough trying to be an educated black female but if i am pregnant iwill just be another hoodrat teenage babymama....any advice would be helpful ANY thanks... ↓
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