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my parents got divorced when i was about 7 years old i have 4 siblings all together, When my parents got divorced my mother started see other men and one of them drugged her and since 8 years now she has bee on the downntown east side on drugs i dont know how she survived. it makes me so upset and depressed see her like this sometimes i think it is our fault. my father got remarried not giving a shit about her. i was 18 when i decided to get married to my boyfriend i though all my problems would go away but they didnt. imy husband is do caring but he will never understand what i am going through without having a mother around or father. i ve been married for 4 years and i always feel stressed out and depressed that no one will ever like me and i that i hate my life and i wish i was dead. everyone always tells me how beautiful i am and i have so much but it just doesnt seem like it. my husband is not that sexual as i am. so started seeking love form outside i started goin with this married guy and we would have sex. no love no relationships just sex to make me feel better, and i guess i;m trying to cover up for my worries and stress by doing this. please help me i thnk i;m gonna go crazy/ what should i do? how do i move on and let go of my past. ↓
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