Well I had the scan. They didn't include the doctors report, they emailed it to my doctor. Grrrr.
During the scan thought the girl spoke to me. My uterus is positioned back, my right ovary is very small, appears not to work and has possible scaring. The left ovary is unusually large with immature follicles on it, perhaps consistent with Polycystic Ovaries.
When I got back to my hotel I cried, a lot.
I spoke to my mum, my sister and my husband. I know now that my sister may possibly have cycts and today my mum told me that my other sister has endometrosis. Looks like we are all going to have a few problems ttc in my family.
I am booked to go back to see my doctor on Monday.
I just want to drop off the face of the planet. I don't even want to ttc, what's the point? If things are that bad I can bonk until I turn blue and my hair turns grey and I still wont fall pregnant.
Life is so unfair.
Somebody kill me. ↓
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| Name: A Mom To Be | Date: May 19th, 2007 9:22 AM |
| Perhaps I should change my name to "Never A Mom to Be" ↑ |
| Name: atomicsnowflake | Date: May 19th, 2007 9:27 AM |
| Don't lose hope. There are plenty of fertility treatments available. You can consider using donor eggs and having IVF. ↑ |
| Name: A Mom To Be | Date: May 19th, 2007 9:31 AM |
| No. I wont use someone elses eggs, I wont even consider it. ↑ |
| Name: briseis | Date: May 19th, 2007 10:14 AM |
| Aw, I'm so sorry you had such an awful experience. But do wait until you get the report, and have spoken to your doctor about what your options are. Perhaps it isn't as bad as you think ... And even if it is, perhaps something can be done about your left ovary to stimulate ovulation ... I'm sure this news doesn't mean you are infertile. It may just mean you might need some assistance with conceiving. And that's not uncommon. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better ... Try not to despair. At least now you know why you haven't been conceiving so far ... and now something can be done about it. ↑ |
| Name: Daisy-UK | Date: May 19th, 2007 10:38 AM |
Stop being so hard on yourself, it's not the end of the world as many women have gone on to get pregnant with similar situations. A little medical intervention is all you need.
This is a good example of why temp charting is important. I know it can be a pain, but it's worth it. You have been trying for what, 9 months or so? If you had charted from back then, you could have saved yourself the heartache and got help sooner. It's very frustrating to see all that you have put yourself through. I've talked to you since you first came on and you beat yourself up over this, which is normal, but I just wish you didn't have to go through it, this long. You can take this as a swift kick up the rear,lol.
Now that you know, I bet you'll be pregnant before you know it. Just, please don't give up, it's not over!
God bless. ↑ |
| Name: A Mom To Be | Date: May 19th, 2007 10:42 AM |
Obviously I am not going to give up as we want a child, but to say that I should have been temping from day one is a little harsh and hurtful. Most people I know have NEVER temped, and the ones I have did it after 9 or so months of not falling pregnant, so I actually temped earlier than them.
Thanks briesis, yeah I am looking forward to Monday. ↑ |
| Name: A Mom To Be | Date: May 19th, 2007 10:42 AM |
| Also a little medical intervention can be quite expensive. ↑ |
| Name: Daisy-UK | Date: May 19th, 2007 10:49 AM |
I didn't say you should have been temping from the begining, I never even brought it up to you back then. I was stressing the importance of it. I'm not being harsh, I truly don't like seeing you upset. Harsh is saying you want to drop of the face of the planet.
Look, I'm in the same boat as you, I've been trying since my mc in Aug and still haven't got pregnant, so I know what you are going through.
I've been supportive and encouraging with you since day one and it upsets me that you consider my words harsh. ↑ |
| Name: Daisy-UK | Date: May 19th, 2007 10:50 AM |
| Name: briseis | Date: May 19th, 2007 10:58 AM |
| Well I'll be thinking of you on Monday. Let us know how you get on. xxxx ↑ |
| Name: DaneseS | Date: May 19th, 2007 11:29 AM |
| i commented on babyonthemind......but just know i am keeping you in my thoughts and crossing everything for you...dont give up hope yet ↑ |
| Name: mizzescalante | Date: May 19th, 2007 8:10 PM |
| sorry to hear of your news. dont give up hope though. fingers crossed for you and lots of baby dust. ↑ |
| Name: Coartney | Date: May 19th, 2007 9:16 PM |
well i know this is gonna sound bad coming from me b.c i have a kid now, but being pregnant isnt everything. there are tons of kids out there they would love to have a mommy like you, or even a family at all. and if you can give your love to someone, even if he/she didnt come from your crotch then thats something you should be proud of. i know i know we all want a kid of our own. our genes. but worse comes to worse, you help out someone and you have a kid. i hope it doesnt come to that, i would love for you to experience the hells of pregnancy :) but just keep some faith, everything in life does happen for a reason, and we may never find out what those reasons are.
keep your head up, no matter how hard it gets. it doesnt make you any less of a woman or human being b.c you have problems down there. it seems to be genetic in your family. i was told i couldnt have kids, and i got pregnant and we were def not trying. but again i ws told no kids, and now braden is a month old today.
goodluck and god bless hun ↑ |
| Name: SamanthaLynn | Date: May 19th, 2007 9:18 PM |
| Name: briseis | Date: May 20th, 2007 11:42 AM |
I totally see everyone's point. But donor eggs, and adoption is an absolute last resort, which I hope A Mom To Be never has to consider. If it is Polycystic Ovary Syndrome, then that is a setback, but it doesn't deem the person infertile. In fact, it's a very common condition, but very treatable. A dose of Clomid could be all an affected person needs! And I personally know of 3 women who used Clomid to conceive successfully, one of which had a multiple pregnancy.
Anyway, I hope you'll get some positive news from your doctor on Monday. :) ↑ |
| Name: A Mom To Be | Date: May 20th, 2007 12:11 PM |
| Thanks briseis, I am clear on the fact that we will never consider a donor egg and would only consider adoption if I reached 35 and wasn't pregnant (I am 26). You may think I am selfish but this is what I want. It is better than I am clear on how I feel as I don't want to have a child that I resent or don't love 110% because it is not what I wanted. I am the person who says at Christmas, "No offence, I really don't like it, I hope you still have the receipt". I know children are different but I am entitled to have my own, also in my country adoption is hard, I would say it is not like America. I have adopted relations and they are the closest family members I have out of all of them but this is different. Anyway I am going nucking futs, I will have to wait and see what the doctor says tomorrow. ↑ |
| Name: briseis | Date: May 20th, 2007 7:29 PM |
It's not at all selfish to want to have your own babies ... That's very natural. So no, I don't think you're being selfish at all. I would never have considered donor eggs either, and maybe not even adoption, as I was adopted at birth. So to adopt, as well as be adopted would be too difficult for me.
Anyway, as I say, that's a last resort. Lets just see what the doctor says. It's your own baby you want. :) xxxxxxxxxx ↑ |
| Name: A Mom To Be | Date: May 21st, 2007 7:31 AM |
1. Blood tests on day 21 of this cycle and on one day between days 1 -5 of my next cycle.
2. If androgens (?) are in my blood he will refer me to an endocrinologist.
3. See what endocrinologist says and get referral to a gyno.
4. Lose weight and eat properly. This can be the best defence with PCOS.
Hopefully the blood tests will be good, and I know that losing weight will be good. I am 5ft 10inches and I am currently 75-77kg... it fluctuates. It is in the healthy weight range for my height but I want to get down to 65kg. When I went to uni it fluctuated between 55-60kg. However 2 years ago I was 92kg... I then focused and went down to 75kg Smile Time to focus again I think.
Time to ride my bike. ↑ |
| Name: briseis | Date: May 21st, 2007 8:48 AM |
| So they have confirmed that it is PCOS, or is that why you are visiting them endocrinologist? ↑ |
| Name: briseis | Date: May 21st, 2007 8:50 AM |
| It sounds like your doctor is being proactive, and taking this seriously. How do you feel after the visit? ↑ |
| Name: lana_81 | Date: May 21st, 2007 9:12 AM |
| My sister had andometriosis and cysts on her overies and tryed for a baby for 6 years then did IVF and first go, got twins! there 1 now and shes 36 wanting to have more babys but just found out she has underative thiroid and has to get treated for that!good luck... ↑ |
| Name: Lola | Date: May 21st, 2007 12:12 PM |
When I was 15 I was having really long and painful periods.
I was in hopspital for ages with it.
They thought I had endometriosis...but never confirmed it. They just said they were doing tests because they think I may have.
Then when I was discharged I just never went back to my doc' and never heard anythin' about it after that. I was too young to understand anyways.
I also had cysts on my ovary...but the doctor said cysts aren't a problem unless they become enlarged...So I dunno...
I doubted I'd get pregnant....so I wasn't that scared about contraception.
But thankfully...everything worked out fine for me.
I hope everything works out for you too...and keep tryin' :) ↑ |
| Name: A Mom To Be | Date: May 21st, 2007 12:35 PM |
I have regular periods.
I don't have endometriosis.
Blood test is also to look at thyroids, the doctor said it may also be a problem, so the blood tests are to look at the whole picture.
Will see endocrinologist if my blood tests confirm the presence of androgens (know I am typing the wrong word or spelling). ↑ |
| Name: A Mom To Be | Date: May 21st, 2007 12:36 PM |
Periods are not too painful.
Does anyone have any questions? ↑ |
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