Just to let u know, this is pg54
Well, my period came last month, a little screwed up, but it came. I took a test and it came back negative. This month we tried again. I tested Thurs. and it was negative...tested Friday, and got a second line...wasn't as dark as the test line, but there was no mistaking that it was there. I was soooo happy...finally after the mcs and all these neg tests, i was going to get to give my DH the best ever Valentine's Day present, I didn't say anything to John, I was going to do something special for V-day.
Then last night I was brushing my hair after my shower and my stomach started cramping. I just put my mind off it, figured it was just the rest of the implantation cramping...i'd been spotting a little yesterday. THen I went to walk out of the bathroom and had to step over my cat cuz he wouldn't move and all of a sudden, it just felt like someone twisted a knife in my stomach. I literally fell to the ground, I couldn't even walk it hurt so bad. As soon as I could think straight again, I felt the bleeding...and I knew what it was.
John was home, thank God, so we went to the dr. So, here we are, the day after our wedding anniversary, and just a few days til V-day, finding out we just had our third miscarriage (2nd dr. confirmed one)...
I don't know what to do girls, I'm just so .... lost.....
The other two were hard....but this one...wow!!! I didn't realize it would bother me so much. I guess maybe because we were actually TRYING for this one.
Sorry, this is so long, I just need someone to vent to...my poor dh, he's been crying just as much as me, I felt maybe I shouldn't dump any more emotion on him...we've already laid in bed all day bawling about it. ↓
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| Name: tylersmom06 | Date: Feb 12th, 2007 2:53 AM |
| Oh Ashley honey I am so sorry! I really have no idea what to say, nothing is gonna make you feel better right now! Just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you and you are in my prayers and I am so sorry! ↑ |
| Name: ashley54 | Date: Feb 12th, 2007 3:01 AM |
| thanks, karen...i'm tryng to cope with it, john has to go back tomorrow...and i'm just not ready to be alone...so my friend is supposed to come over tomorrow after he leaves ↑ |
| Name: missmara | Date: Feb 12th, 2007 3:46 AM |
| Aww, sweetie, I'm so sorry. I wish I had the right words to say, but I know there is no such thing. You're hubby sounds like a sweetheart, and I'm sure he would want to know what's in your heart - he probably wants to share his thoughts with you too. And we're all here for you too. Prayers sent your way... ↑ |
| Name: Coartney | Date: Feb 12th, 2007 4:12 AM |
| wow I am so sorry to hear this . .I know sorries arent gonna make it better, but you are in my thoughts and prayers. remember to keep your head up, everything in life does happen for a reason. Even if they are screwed up reasons that we may never know. Anyways, I am truly sorry to hear this, you seemed so happy in the beginning of the post and i was like finally and now Im just like OMG she so didnt deserve that. anyways again, im sorry. :( ↑ |
| Name: firsttimer | Date: Feb 12th, 2007 4:31 AM |
| i am sooo sorry ashley! you are in my prayers. i love ya girl! ↑ |
| Name: ashley54 | Date: Feb 12th, 2007 4:56 AM |
thanks so much girls...it helps to know i've got support
my parents would've freaked out if they knew we were ttc...so i can't tell them, and i know if we tell john's parents, they''ll say something to mine....so i guess its between us and our friends...
they said we can keep trying tho, wasn't far enough along to do any damage...only about 3-4 weeks ↑ |
| Name: christiansmommy | Date: Feb 12th, 2007 12:16 PM |
| oh my God. that is terrible. i am so, so sorry ashley. i don't even know what to say. having been through one, i couldn't imagine going through 3! my thoughts and prayers are with you and hubby. ↑ |
| Name: Rosie_Waldron_91 | Date: Feb 12th, 2007 4:05 PM |
| i am so sorry for your loss ↑ |
| Name: Alone | Date: Feb 12th, 2007 5:17 PM |
| ashley i am so sorry for everything you have been through. i know what you are going through and i just want to say i am sorry ↑ |
| Name: AyameLovesXion | Date: Feb 12th, 2007 7:22 PM |
| I'm sorry for what happened. ↑ |
| Name: ashley54 | Date: Feb 12th, 2007 7:44 PM |
thanks so much girls!!!
my dh has to go back to work today, he only has the weekends off...i was worried i was gonna freak out all nite,but then my best friend said she'd come over tonite after class, so at least i'll have some company :) ↑ |
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