I was gonna come back a long time ago but had all kinds of bad shit happening....life is absolutely crazy here.
Best news first Daisy is doing good at this point and I am so damn proud of her! she is 20 wks old 21 inches long and weighs 10.5 lb.She smiles all the time and is a totally happy and content baby girl.I can take her anywhere and she is so good.
For the past 2 1/2 weeks we have been living out of a motel.(yeah Im telling you its the bomb...)because my parents asked us to lleave their hous cause they were too busy for us to even be there.I have only went to visit them once since we left.....
On Sunday Daisy's Dad (Les)came over to see heer and started drinking and when I went to give him a ride home he kept insisting on having sex I kept telling him no I dont want to,but he kept insisting until I thought he was going to kill me when I finally told him I dont want to but if you're going to anyhow then please get it over so I can get back to Daisy(she was with my best friend) he the proceeded to sexuallt assault me over the next hour and a half.After I talked to the cops they had me go to the hospital for rape testing,the confiscated all my clothing I had on at the time and filed for a protective order against him.Our first court hearing is on Tuesday and I am scared to death to go into that court room to testify against him.I have had absolutely no support from my family through all this and it is hard but I will manage to get through this too.
Love to all,
Sal ↓
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| Name: Nicolaaa | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 7:39 PM |
OH sal!!! i just logged on to ask if anyone knew how you are!!!!!!
Im so sorry you're going through this...that man is a piece of piss....he doesnt deserve you and Daisy...i know 10000% what you are going through and I hope to hell that thing get better for you soon. And I'm so pleased Daisy is doing so well!!! ANyway... here's my email [email protected]
Im 37 weeks tomorrow and went to hosp earlier with contractions...but they sent me home as theyr still not very frequent and Im only dilated to 2.5. But...we reckon lil lady will be here soon.
Im sorry things are so unstable...and genuinley wish you all the best, keep in touch and focus on Daisy. She'll get you through all these bad times.
And please...you have the balls to testify against him....I did it...But again...if you dont feel strong enough, dont......but i think you ARE strong enough and its a way of showing Daisy how much you love her and what an arsehole her daddy can be. And...i hope your family come to their senses and support you soon...2007 has been a rough year...has been for me too....but....2008 is nearing....and we can all hope its a happy year..
keep in touch sal...x ↑ |
| Name: NIKKIS | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 7:46 PM |
| Hey Sal I am so sorry to hear things are going that way. Hopefully they lock his ass up! Yay that Daisy is doing so well! ↑ |
| Name: Lola | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 7:54 PM |
I thought he was coming over to see Daisy but then you say she was at your best friends.
I'm confused................. ↑ |
| Name: summadaiz | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 7:58 PM |
| Lola, perhaps she dropped Daisy off in order to take him home... and it says she was WITH her best friend not AT her best friend's home. She could've just been watching her for a little while. Either way, I'm sorry this happened to you Sal... Be strong and you will get through it... ↑ |
| Name: Lola | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:05 PM |
| Yeah that makes a little more sense. Sorry. I've got my dumb cap on tonight! XD ↑ |
| Name: summadaiz | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:06 PM |
| You're not dumb. It's okay. haha. ↑ |
| Name: disturbed angel | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:12 PM |
| sorry i guess they crossed...lol ↑ |
| Name: Nicolaaa | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:14 PM |
| Sal...you're strong...think of all you have been through with Daisy!.....she's proof your a strong girl. I'll be thinking of ya next week...and hope it all goes well. ↑ |
| Name: summadaiz | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:15 PM |
| Sal, I had no problem with anything you said, I was just trying to help Lola understand because she said she was confused. Good luck on Tuesday. I'm sorry for the misunderstanding. ↑ |
| Name: disturbed angel | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:17 PM |
| thanks nicolaa.yeah Ive been thinking about you too wondering how you're doing.Time goes by so fast.I remember when you had just found out you were preggo. and having seizures same time I was.Yes,I have to testify and be strong and get his sorry ass locked up so hopefully we will be safe.I am terrified he will come kill me next so I WILL go through this without backing down even though I still love him as my daughters daddy ↑ |
| Name: Nicolaaa | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:19 PM |
Although my circumstances were different...in a bizaare way...iv never found it possible to hate my rapist....he's my childrens father.....and I still....I cant hate him. He's out of my life and i think he's an asshole....i hate what he did...but i cant hate HIM.
I've been having seizures still all the way through still..havent had one since 30 weeks which is nice. She's called Sofia Renae ↑ |
| Name: disturbed angel | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:21 PM |
| thats a cute name! I love it! and yeah I agree with you I cant hate him just what he did....I tmakes me sooo sad to know one day I will have to tell Daisy what happend but it will work itself out when the time is right. ↑ |
| Name: summadaiz | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:21 PM |
| I haven't seen or heard anything from you in a long time either Nicolaa.. BTW my journal is 1stbabyturner if that helps you to remember who I am... How are the twins doing? ↑ |
| Name: Nicolaaa | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:27 PM |
yeah i dont have a journal anymore...it got hacked or something...was very very angry. lol but iv been printing it off for Sofia so not all was lost.
Twins are fine! growing so flipping fast....trying to potty train...which is quite interesting. They are 2 years 3 months old now....amazing.
and I remember who you are...I was shocked when i saw you were 31 weeks.....lol.....do you know what you are having?
I use cafemom now ..... www.cafemom.com/home/.nicola. if you or sal are members add me as a friend and keep in touch....i got pics of my girls....but they are all set to private im afraid.
And I think Sal that you should tell Daisy...i plan on telling my children...which is what i've got stick for. from my mum, and from ladies on here......but i cant pretend with them. Mine will know everything about me...all 3 of them will....I think it will make them strong young women. ANd thats all I can hope for as their mother. ↑ |
| Name: Nicolaaa | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:28 PM |
| and pleased you like her name.... we still call her "Bean" though LOL ↑ |
| Name: summadaiz | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:37 PM |
| Yeah, Nicola I am having a boy. His name is Taiden Kade... Glad the girls are doing good. I remember you talking about one of them sucking on a binky, (I think you call them dummys?) and you were trying to break the habit.. How did that go? ↑ |
| Name: Nicolaaa | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:40 PM |
| Hahaha!! it didnt!! I took them away but then we had a few home crisises (is that word) and things got a bit hectic....so i caved in....she needed her comfort..so the lil blighter still has them...and yep we call them dummies. When baby comes i'm gonna get it off of her. Because she'll be a "big sister and Sofia needs a dummy now, not Daisy because she's a big girl now". I'm gonna give Sofia one....but am going to be firm with her...it comes away when she is 6 months old ish. Im only giving it to her to help lower the SIDS risk. ↑ |
| Name: Nicolaaa | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:40 PM |
| Name: summadaiz | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:43 PM |
| Yeah, I hope I don't have trouble with that... I plan on giving him one to reduce the SIDs risk also, but I'm taking it away as soon as I feel is safe! And that is a good plan to get her to give it up, help her feel like a big girl.. haha. And thanks. I like Sophia. It's a very sophisticated name. ↑ |
| Name: Nicolaaa | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:46 PM |
| lol....we call her fifi after the flower tots...a tv show? not sure if you have the show in america but my girls go mad for it. anyway im going to bed...its nearly 9pm ↑ |
| Name: summadaiz | Date: Nov 21st, 2007 8:52 PM |
| Night... I'm making a Cafe mom right now, so hope we can keep in touch on there. ↑ |
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