Well, Ginger, how has this been for you? I haven't been following all these threads for too long so really I don't know how it has been for you. I have had an eating disorder for over 20 years. I won't go into the details but when it rears its ugly head it is all consuming. It takes over my life; it is who I am. If one of my friends wanted to lose weight and wanted to know if I recommended it my whole hearted response would be HELL NO.
Try sharing with your friend how this really is for you. How much of your day is spent obsessing? How happy are you? What is this doing to your health, and why do you keep it up despite the risks?
Part of anorexia for me was a need for control and a desire to feel like I was good at something. When it dawned on me I was actually putting a lot of effort into destroying myself for the small payoff of looking good and getting validation from a small group of people, it was a real "aha" moment for me. Sometimes I'm still symptomatic with all this but thank the Lord I am relatively free from it. I would not wish the visit to hell to anyone, the price is too high. If this is what it is like for you, let your friend know that and spare her tons of grief. Ultimately it's not what we eat but what is eating us. Figure out what is eating you and it all calms down. ↑ |
Heya nicky168 thanks for replying i appreciate that.
Basically I have been anorexic for nearly 3 years but I have always had body issues. I also have OCD and Depression and I am going through an incredibly hard time emotionally atm due to a bevreament (spelling?) and I also have an elderly grandmother who is deteriorating. My home life was really good as a child but now I feel like I am losing that too because of the person that I have become. Pushing people away and my anger problem etc.
I NEED to lose more weight I am WAY too fat for all this shit anymore I really feel like I am losing my mind I don't think that I can do this for much longer cos it's too hard for me. I am so close to suicide I can taste it.
My friend of course I am extremely concerned about but I feel like it's un-fair for people to blame me just because I have an eating disorder people see us together and link to two and I don't think thats a fair assumption cos I have NEVER tried to help anyone to develop an eating disorder. People have asked me (friends) for tips in the past and not once have I told them cos I think that that is wrong.
Yeah I understand about you wanting control I feel so much more in control and better about things when I am not eating I feel like I can do anything cos I am getting thinner. These past few months I have been doing more and more to lose weight, anything I can do really. I am so desperate now. I have already lost 9 lb in the last few weeks and I wanna get down to like 4 stone. I just wanna be thin and it gets me so down especially cos my best friend is anorexic too but she is WAY thinner than me she shocks you she is so thin.
How old are you btw (don't mean to be rude.)
I am 16 if you were wondering.
Thanks again,
ginger94.
.xxx. ↑ |
| you dont have an eating disorder if you are purposly making yourself do things just to blend in. if shes doing for attention thats just immature and insulting to people who are dieing from these problems. ↑ |
