| I can sympathize with you. I have battled depression for many years. It comes and goes. Only this time, I reached out for help. I didn't like my home life. When I was in 6th grade, I tried to commit suicide. Well, not knowing any better, it back fired on my and made me sick for two weeks. Personally, I didn't like that feeling. Then my junior, I started make bad decisions. I hated school, friends, my family, life. As much as I didn't like my mother at the time, she told me which has always stuck with me for the rest of my life. Only I can change for the better. Despite how I have been feeling and what was going on in my mind, I was the only one, who could put myself on right path of life. I didn't want to turn out like the people in my life. I knew I could be a better person. When I realized that my self worth had qualities to offer even though my family still don't see it, I realized hurting or trying to self destruct was not the answer I wanted. I wanted to be better then those who were trying to ruin me. I have succeeded. I cut out the negative people, who I felt were bringing me down. There are positive people out there. You just have to be willing to seek them out. I thought my family was suppose to be the ones I could count on but they weren't. My whole life they have labeled me as a peice of crap that would never amount to a hill of beans. Their opinions really didn't matter at the kind of person I knew I wanted to be, which was better than them. Yes, at times, it's a hard struggle and I fight the feelings but I know I can hold my head up high and be proud. My family will probably never see or realize the hurtles I have overcome but that's ok. I've accepted it. I have other people in my life that see me for me. They are always building me up. The positive people see the true you. If they don't or can't, they aren't worth the time or energy. Hang in there, you have a purpose in life, you can share the good qualities you do have. They are there, just the right people aren't seeing it. Keep searching and don't give up on yourself. A lot of people in this world enjoy tearing down other people's self esteem. Don't let those kinds of people do it to you. I don't know why you are depressed but hurting yourself is not the answer. Don't let your anger get the best of you. If it's a person that is making you angry, move on. They aren't worth letting you feel this way. Especially, if you know you are unable to reason with that person in a calm manner. I hope what I said will help. ↑ |
| how could you "fake" cutting? ↑ |
