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I am currently 30 weeks pregnant in the home stretch but still worried about my baby boy having a father. The father is 16 years older than I am and he wants me to come live with him. I have refused this since I found out I was pregnant last year because I am not finished with college and do to financial reasons I will not be able to finish in the next couple years. I need some insite on this because I know what it is like to grow up with an unstable father and I don't want my son to go through the same thing. At the same time the father Sammy has 2 other children he gave up at birth because he was still partying and didn't want the responsability so now he cannnot see those children. We used to date but not ne more he had a bad episode of jealously and went home and set my clothes on fire in the front yard when I was living with him so thats another reason that I do not want to live with him but Im not sure how to go about having him around my son. I am not it that great of situtaion myself being that I am moving to California to live with my mother and step father who happen to be functional meth heads so its the lesser of 2 evils. I love my mother and agree she needs help but I cannot make her get help same with my step father and they think that I do not know that they have this problem but I am well aware. I know I don't want my son to be around the meth but I don't know that trying to be with my sons dad again is the best idea either. I am currently unemployed but have been searching for work and I don't have enough funds to move out on my own I applied for help from the government but I am still waitng a response and could be waiting for years. I do have my own vechile though so thats one thing I got going and my mother and step father have bought all my baby stuff at least all the big items. They are the only family I have at this point and Im afraid to leave them, my other family such as my aunts and uncles have their own addiction problems and the ones that don't don't want anything to do with the family. Right now I need all the family and support I can get that is why I am going to move 2400 miles back to California. Hopefully someone can give me some advice on what to do. I am just so stress out and depressed and have been this way for quite some time now and I feel even worse because I know my unborn child can feel these negative effects Im having in my life. Please help! ↓
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