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Name: NoahsMama06

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My dad and I don't get along at all. He's an alcoholic and has been for as long as I can remember. He was never physically abusive to me (he was to my mom) but he was very mentally and verbally abusive to me. I don't have much to do with him at all and I told him when Noah was born that if he wants to see him then he has to be completely sober when he's around Noah. For awhile he was really good about it, but then it started slipping and it'd get to where I'd say something and it'd get ok again and then it'd slip again and I'd say something again and then found out he'd drink until we got there and then hide his beer. Well over the weekend it was the last straw. There a birthday party for my grandpa that we went to and my dad was there. He walked out to the car and got Noah out of it and I could tell he was already plastered and then he has the nerve to turn to me and say "Hold this" and hand me his beer and then try to take it back once he had a hold on Noah. I was fuming! I took Noah inside with me (my dad was staying outside) and dad was mad because I wouldn't leave Noah with him. I didn't stay long because I just couldn't stand to be around him any longer and when I went to leave my dad took Noah to say bye and then he wouldn't give him back to me. Noah is terrified of him and he was screaming and crying and wiggling. I was finally able to grab Noah from him and get Noah in the car the whole time having to push my dad away (now mind you I'm 8 months pregnant as well). Once I got Noah in I climbed in and locked the doors and just left.. almost running my dad over because he wouldn't move. Now all my aunts and uncles are watching this and no one tries to help me. Once I got out of town I stopped and got Noah out of the car and tried to comfort him because he was still crying. Now I am so mad at myself because I swore I would never put my kids in that situation that I had to grow up with and here's Noah screaming and terrified because of my dad. He finally fell asleep and I drove the 3 hours home and told Brian what happened and he was of course fit to be tied and wanted to go beat some sense into my dad but he calmed down and we talked and agreed that Noah doesn't need to see my dad anymore.. sober or not he blew it. I am just so mad that I let him scare Noah like that! ↓

Name: bebe9281 | Date: Aug 15th, 2007 3:03 PM

don't be so hard on yourself. You want to trust him. He's your dad. Just chalk this up to experience. you have learned a lesson. ↑

Name: winnmom | Date: Aug 15th, 2007 4:02 PM

Noahsmom.......
My Dad had the same problem with his Dad........and he put down the Law......You do NOT drink when my kids are around( Me and my brother) .......well it worked out well for him......all my cousins seen my Grandpa drunk all the time, and I did not know he was an alcoholic until I was an adult.......and even as an adult he NEVER drank while I was around.......and he would come visit me etc.......2 years before he passed he finally quit drinking........
Yes we want to trust our parents......but as parents ourselves....we need to protect our babes.......It is hard at times.....Good for you, for standing strong! ↑