I feel like I am in a rut!! I didn't really want to marry my husband when I did, I wanted to wait a few years. He, on the other hand, wanted to tie the knot as soon as possible. My husband has a child out of wedlock, so after our engagement we found out we were preggers. He freaked out and didn't want to have another child without being married, so we married right after we learned of my pregnancy. I wanted the engagement to last at least 3 years!
I told him I didn't want to be married, but he pleaded and so I gave in!! DUMB me!! I love my husband, I do, but I don't think I am IN love with him, at least not at this time. I know that some people want what I have... a man who loves them, a house, a child that is BEYOND beautiful! My husband is a GREAT man, but I so yearn to be single.
If I can give a little back story; this is my second marriage. I married my first husband on impulse (before it was popular) and it lasted about 5 years, although we were only together for 2.5 of them. I met my husband when my ex decided to leave me for a younger girl, 3 years younger.. lol.. and so I moved from one serious relationship to the next without thinking. I was 19 when I married my 1st husband, and 26 when I married my current husband. I went from one serious relationship to the next and I feel like I have missed out on so much! Although I am 30(+) years now, I want to let my hair loose and party.
Am I a horrible person for wishing to be single? ↓
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