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Name: Lostlove

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I have recently married and I feel that it was a huge mistake. I am very unhappy. I met my husband in college and at that time I have never really been in a serious relationship. I liked him and wanted to get to know him so we made a relationship out of it. I then found that he was attracted to many different girls and was hurt many times by him. I didn't let the relationship go because I was living with him at that time because I lost my job and he was supporting me. I guess you can say I felt obligated to stay with him. I then decided to move to another state and find a job snce it was working for me at my current location. I did move found a job and we continued our relationship even but now long distance and with trust issues...but again I loved his family and felt obligated for some reason to be with him. I then met someone at my job and started hanging out with him and come to find out he was the best guy for me that I have ever met. We laughed, he was spontaneous, he was affectionate, he made me feel beautiful...but for some reason I was still holding on to this baggage. I then was propsed to by my husband I again moved to his home town. I was still communicating with the guy I met and he was tellling me I shouldn't get married to this guy but for some reason I still was getting the point. I finally got married to my husband and that is when it hit me I didn't love my husband I didn't like him for real he did not make me feel beautiful and I think that he is a big baby. I feel as if I do everything. I decided I wanted to leave him and live my life since I only have one. Then I found that I was pregnat...I had no intentions of bringing a child in this situation and now I feel trapped. What do I do. My husband knows how I feel towards him but he got a ll excited about the baby like it will save us or something but I don't believe that. Can someone please help and be honest with me. PS I am still in love with the other guy and think about him daily. ↓

Name: jackson1 | Date: Sep 6th, 2011 1:06 AM

Those are the same words I play in mind over over , my greatest mistake. I try to give the benefit of doubt, that perhaps they did not mean to hurt me, but still, I think that was the intention. So now, I am more alone, than if I was alone. ↑