Why are we so obsessed with food and weight??
I hate the fact that so much of my day is spent thinking about food: "am i eating to much? will ppl think i am eating too much? why do i care? i really want that chocolate cake. oh crap i shouldnt have eaten it. i'm so fat. i feel sick. i'm grose. how can anyone bear to talk to someone as grose and fat as me?"
I hate the fact that when i am with my bf all i can think about is not how in love i am but how i can avoid him touching my stomach and realising i'm fat.. I hate how easy i find it to make myself sick.. i hate that sometimes the only way i can sleep peacefully is after i have.. i hate how ppl dont have a clue wats going on and thnk im perfect... and i hate how easy it is to lie...
Most of all i hate myself for letting it get like this and i hate that i cant stop...
I am pathetic. and angry for feeling so. ↓
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| Name: bsteegirl420 | Date: Sep 18th, 2006 2:12 PM |
| I always feel the same way, and my bf tells me that he thinks I am sexier when i am confident about my self, my stomach. He doesnt know that I don't eatat akll, and when I do, I make myself sick out of guilt. I hate being this way. And my bf says I am getting to boney, and he misses my curves ↑ |
| Name: Lizzi | Date: Sep 26th, 2006 5:40 PM |
| I obsess about food too but I really have a serious weight problem. I eat because it tastes good and because I'm nervous and bored. I eat because I have to cook anyway for my husband and son. I eat because I have to shop for it. Then I hate myself for all I shouldn't have eaten. The bigger I got the more tired I felt and the less energy I had. So then there I've been year after year sitting and eatting and getting bigger and bigger. I'm 35 now and have gained 200 lbs. since highschool! Yes,200 lbs.! It doesn't seem possible that a body could hold that much weight but I'm living proof it can. It's ugly and it wears me down. I hate going out in public. I can't wear pretty clothes. It's a good thing I'm already married because no other man would want me like this. I am once again battling my weight. I hate it! ↑ |
| Name: hailybaby_2000 | Date: Sep 26th, 2006 6:14 PM |
I empathise, my closest friends had no clue that I had so many problems, I cut when I would eat after making my self throw up, because I shouldnt have eaten those things, I was and still am so obsessed with food, I make myself sick, I repulse myself.... I hate the fact that I cant make these thoughts stop, and make myself feel better....And to top it off I slapped my boyfriend for touching my stomach, how sick is that, because I thought he thought I was fat... When I eat in public places with family I am always thinking that everyone around me is thinkin wow she should so not be eating that, in fact she could go with out eating for a year.... I hate that I do this to myself, but what I hate more is when people who dont have this problem try and say, Hey you did this to yourself, you chose this.... I wish it were that simple.... What I am tring to say is you arent alone even though you may feel it sometimes if not all the time you aren't....
my e-mail if you want to talk is
[email protected] ↑ |
| Name: sybil | Date: Sep 28th, 2006 6:18 AM |
| youre def not alone. i just found this site, and its a relief to know there are people out there like me. reading this, i feel like i wrote it. i know every feeling...maybe just talking about it helps ↑ |
| Name: californiachic0201 | Date: Sep 30th, 2006 8:34 PM |
I totally agree.
yahoo IM me at californiachic0201..do you have yahoo IM ↑ |
| Name: looza | Date: Oct 13th, 2006 9:41 AM |
| its your bf guys (i know thats not really the topic) and if he cant accept you for it then stuff him... hes not worth it... ↑ |
| Name: Nay | Date: Oct 16th, 2006 6:22 PM |
| what foods are bad to eat when pregnant? ↑ |
| Name: Miss.Punk | Date: Oct 18th, 2006 2:40 AM |
hey i can't help being skinny I eat all the time to and I am not into the whole eating disorder thing
Samantha ↑ |
| Name: Lizzi | Date: Oct 19th, 2006 10:12 PM |
| I lost 12 lbs. in 23 days! What I'm doing is giving up soda for crystal light and not eatting after 7pm. I exercise but not much. I've taken walks outside a few times and I have an in-home walking video I've used some,but other than that it's all I've been doing. ↑ |
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