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Name: Pianophillic
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Im so pissed off... i was at my boyfriends house and his mom cooked the most freaking greasyiest oilest pasta EVER and I always eat her food becuase its her culture for everyone to eat a LOT and she kept giving me so much food and I always purge it when im done- even my boyfrienfd knows that.... but afvter tonight she kept talking to me and i couldnt get away and I almost had a panic atack and but the time i finally go to the bathroom to purge I couldnt becuae I was panicing... and I had to wait like 20 more minutes until i finally could... and I know I couldnt purg it all.. for the first time in a long time I couldnt purge it all and now im so scared ill wake up fat and i wont be bale to fit my clothes.. ive been loosing weight steadly eachweelk for an entire year- with one set back in inpateint therapy=- where i gained more weight then EVer and Ill never go back...
Im so scared for tomorrow morning
and I never ever wan tto stop ... my life is ruined anyway my mind is gone all i think about is not getting fat..... and how i can possibly keep going on purging allll the time... i nbver want to stop and then i want to stop so bad...
AAHHH
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Name: atomic snowflake | Date: Jul 6th, 2006 7:25 PM
Wait until you've got some real problems to deal with then you'll have something to worry about.
The adult world is full of: debt, illness, redundancy, unemployment, housing difficulties, abuse, frustration, responsibility and death.
You're obviously not an adult yet so I'll leave you to your trivia. 

Name: anais | Date: Jul 6th, 2006 9:17 PM
well, atomic snowflake, i have to disagree. all those problems that adults have will only make things worse. the minute you feel stressed about anything you feel the need to eat a lot and then purge. cause you're in search of that good feelings that you get after you do it. believe me, i know what i'm saying. i wish i didn't.

:Pianophillic: your boyfriend's mother does not rule your your life. just tell her that you're trying to get a balance in your diet cause you haven't been feeling well. i'm sure she'll understand. and your ex.. he should really do something about that, help you in that situation, tell his mother not to force you. my ex didn't do anything to help me. i don't hate him for it, but i wasn't comfortable with his attitude at the time. i didn't say anything and that only added to my stress.
i know what you're going through. i fight it every day. and lose so often.. but there's always hope. 

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