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Hi, I've been bulimic for over a year now and i was anorexic before that. I dont think i was completely anorexic but i did limit what i ate a lot. I made meal plans and only allowed myself to eat what was on my plan. As time went on, I ate fewer calories everyday until all i ate was 1 yogurt, 3 mints, gum and lemonade with 0 calories in it all day. I lost about 20 pounds then couldn't take it anymore. I started to eat a lot and throw up, thus labeling me as bulimic. I kept it a secret for a long time then i confided in a few close friends. Now i regret doing that because i feel like they watch me even though i know they're not. I dont want to eat in front of them because i'm afraid they will think that i'm lying about my disorder and trying to get attention. I'm also afraid to be normal because i'm afraid of gaining weight and again them thinking i was lying. I dont want to not eat in front of them because they will be concerned. I just dont know what to do. Does anyone else feel this way. I dont know weather to eat or to not eat. Either way i feel like i'm constantly being judged. I feel like i have an image to live up to and i can't get better because of it. ↓
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