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| Name: candles121 | Date: Dec 28th, 2006 8:09 AM |
| I know I have a really hard time looking in the mirror excepting me for who I am.... I don't see beautiful... I see.. a pug nose, a high forehead, a funny smile..... I don't look at the whole picture....I pick out features and disect them until the whole picture is distorted..... But lately I have begun to see myself again as I did years ago when I was a child and didn't know what beauty was.... I started to change myself from the inside first and then worrried about the outside.... It is amazing how differently we look in the mirrorr when we change how we view the world...... You know...I may not have an ED but I am a woman.....and I understand what a woman feels.... I know what it is like to look in a mirror and see a stranger staring back...To see fat where non exhists......To cry because you feel so ugly you don't understand how anyone could possibly love you......To need to do something to change all that.....to find something to take away all the pain and heartache that you think looking in the mirror causes......For some of you it is cutting, for some of you it is ED and for some of us it is deep depression......For some meds might help, for some of us it is taking things out in anger.....for others it is eating untill you want to burst....for others it is feeling the need to be aneroxic (having control over food)......or purging...... You may think I don't understand but in all reality I do,.....Sometimes I sit hear and read stories and actually cry over them because I can feel your hurt.....I want you all to know that I pray for all of you....If you don't believe in it or don't like it that is fine.....i will never push it on anyone....but sometimes it feels good to know their is someone out their who cares and wants you to see beauty....in yourself....and in the world around you.... God Bless ↑ |
| Name: lucie | Date: Jan 3rd, 2007 2:12 PM |
| hi candles, great post! made me think what beautiful is to me. When i look at others i connect them with beauty when i see a personality shining through like no-one elses, when they have that sparkle in their eye. But i would only see beauty in myself truely if i was thinner. lucie ↑ |
| Name: candles121 | Date: Jan 4th, 2007 7:50 PM |
| Being beautiful isn't about being thin or fat, being tall or small. It is what is in your heart....... If your heart is right you will stop looking for the superficial things in yourself and see what everyone else sees... it took me along time to figure that out....It isnt what you look like. It is how you feel.....If you feel beautiful then you will see it in a mirror. if you feel ugly...you will see it in a mirror... Example: my husband usually tells me I am beautiful when I think i am at my worst (first thinh in the morning).......I usually laugh at him and tell him he is nuts... sometimes i see what he sees and sometimes i don't....it is all in my mind and in what I am willing to accept as beautiful..... But you know what!!! Who cares what I see....Do you really know how you sound to other people....You hear your voice one way....and people hear it another way....It is the same with looks....Just because you see something missing...someone else may see you as perfect......... Just remind yourself daily You are special because God Made You Special.....Their is nobody else like you.......... You would be suprised how uplifting this can be.... God Bless!!!! ↑ |
| Name: lucie | Date: Jan 5th, 2007 2:05 PM |
| yeah i see what your saying, they are very uplifting words. In all honesty 99.9% of the day i couldn't care less wot people think of me, i am what i am. i don't care because i don't listen to what people tell me to do, and would never change for anyone. My ED i am sure was about control, i had work problems, boyfriend problems, health problems and my aunty was ill. Being Bulimic was the only thing that was mine no one elses! I haven't made myself sick for a few weeks, and time is flying by. i do love myself for who i am, i think i have a great personlaty, my figure is ok and i am very ambition, i try and focus on my good points and this gets me through! x ↑ |
| Name: candles121 | Date: Jan 5th, 2007 4:09 PM |
| WoW!! A few weeks that's awsome Keep up the Good Work!!! ↑ |
