today i was bombarded with people trying to feed me and telling me to eat. what makes things worse is that i am in sadd. a club for students against destructive decisions and they had a surprise party in todays meeting and they had loads of food.
like pizza galore . like ten boxes and everyone was eating and i felt like everyone was staring at me like an alien when i said
" no thanks. "
there was even cookies and soda and chips . ahhh
but im surprised i didnt touch a thing or just walk out. i sat there and watched everyone eat.
i became jealous of how they dont think about the things i think about when im eating.
i became jealous that they dont tear up there food or just eat certain pieces of it
i became jealous that they didn't care if the soda was regular
i became jealous of how easy it was for them to .... eat.
i want to feel that again . to not think . just eat.
i simply cant. ↓
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