here i am once again alone with no one to help me get threw the ruff patches nor some there to be with in the great patches. i lost my mother at the age of 8 years old. mother father was my only guiding light except for one thing he had a drinking problem. so in all with work and his drinking i was merely a shadow walking around the earths crust. the strange thing is that when i had my wife and son i told my self that i will never be like my father. now fast forward to my mid 20's were in one year i not aonly lost my father from a heart attack but also my wife ended her own life as well. i know sit here with my son (not drinking) and feel like im a deja vu effect except for that role reversal. i know that i can do it and make it for the both of use but when does this all become a fairy tale ending. anybody want to guess or tell me when. when do i finally find what i have to have in this world. why must someone suffer so much and yet get no harmony in return (exception my wonderful son). can someone please tell me.
thank you for your time. ↓
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