| Name: Katie | Date: Oct 4th, 2005 9:15 PM |
| Hey, My names Katie.... I've felt real bad about myself for about 2 months now. Just about 2 days ago i decided i was sick of who i was and i was goin to start throwing up because i felt so guilty about when i eat. Every time i think about stoppin all i half to do is look in the mirror and then i just make myself throw up. My friends say that i'm pretty and skinny but i have a "ghetto booty" and i hate it. I just hate me. I feel like every one notices. i want to loose weight and i hate bein myself.I havent told anyone about what i'm doin exsept you. I always cry and try to avoid the mirror. I never wanna go with friends any were and i'm always mean when i dont want to be.i get jealous of other girls and the way they look when they eat more then me. I wanna be as skinny as them but when i look in the mirror i always say stuff to myself like "YOU FAT BITCH WHY DONT YOU EAT SOMEMORE" I hate myself ↑ |
| Name: Anonymous | Date: Oct 5th, 2005 1:34 AM |
Katie- please please read a good self help book to try to fix this. I read "Self Matters" by doctor Phil. It had all these assignments that really helped me to take a good look at myself on the inside. It sucked. I cried. Then he gave other ways to look at yourself- and I stopped throwing up. I don't care how beautiful you are there will always be someone in this world that is better looking than you. When you get older it gets only worse not better because then you worry about people being more successful then you. I have the same bootie- and I walk alot of hills to get rid of it. Butt it still gets muscular so it gets frustrating. Don't start something like throwing up to keep you skinny- because what happens is your body begins to starve and feed and store the fat because it has nothing else to nourish on.
On dr phil there was this man on that was abused when growing up. He was literally locked in the basement and so physically and mentally abused. I really cried for him. He never had a mom or dad to encourage him- or help him find things about him that were great. He finally decided that he only had himself to survive. He ended up graduating from high school with honors because he put all his energy into showing anyone that beat him- that they were wrong.
I don't know what you look like- but the fact is your healthy, you can walk and talk and that is more than alot of people have. Think about a soldier in Iraq that may have lost their limbs. You need to be grateful that you are capable of fixing your flaws or accept them as something that makes you beautiful.
I'm not sure how old you are- but I am 38 and I wish I could wrap my arms around you, let you cry and then begin to show you all the talents you possess inside. You owe it to yourself to rise above your flaws and not beat up your body. You have your entire life ahead of you and only you can determine its worth! Good luck and LOL! ↑ |
| Name: Melissa | Date: Oct 5th, 2005 10:18 PM |
| Wow, it's amazing how many people are struggling with this problem. Maybe I'm not crazy. I have struggled with bulimia for 15 years. It's a dark secret I have kept from everyone even my husband who has been with me for 12 years. Now I am pregnant and scared to death. Something comes over me and I have to eat and I can't stop. It's like I'm an addict. When I'm completely stuffed I throw up. It's horrible. My heart beats like crazy and it is very scary. I was OK for the first few weeks of the pregancy but now I have had 2 episodes and I am so scarred because I have many months ahead of me. I 33 and feel like a pathetic child with no discipline or responsibility. My family and friends have no idea and would not believe this is going on. How am I going to take care of a child if I can't take care of myself? I understand what others are going through and am so glad I found this site. I thought I was alone but I'm not. Wish me luck ↑ |
| Name: sarah | Date: Oct 6th, 2005 3:10 AM |
| do you know any chatroms that makes you become anorexic ↑ |
| Name: Anonymous | Date: Oct 6th, 2005 10:44 AM |
| Melissa- I was the same way until I got pregnant- then I saw a program on what it does to your baby when you throw up. They can be born disfigured - without limbs- look it up in the internet. I saw that and stopped immediately- I had one baby when I was 26- that was easy- then I had one at 33 and one at 35 and it was horrible. My body went through the ringer. I mentally had such a hard time getting fatter without throwing up. But I just kept telling myself - this time its not just me I'm hurting its my baby. You owe it to that little life inside of you to stop. Even if its just for 9 months. But do it. Its the sacrafice we as mom's with eating disorders make. I gained 80lbs with my last pregnancy. Trust me I was so freaked out when that scale went over 200lbs! Never in my life.....I still cringe. But I breast fed afterwards which really helps to take the weight off. The only bad thing is you still eat like your pregnant because your body is working so hard to produce milk. But the pounds just shed. If there was ever a time in your life that you had to put someone else infront of yourself it is now. And welcome to motherhood!! ITs only just begun!! ↑ |
| Name: alana | Date: Oct 12th, 2005 7:24 PM |
| i am only 11 and already bulimia has hit me, no-one can help me, experts think they can shove medicine down our throats and we'll stop making ourselves puke, but bulimia is emotional, i know how you feel. ↑ |
| Name: Jessica Traves | Date: Oct 14th, 2005 3:28 AM |
Hi Nolle,
i would not know what you are goin though because i myself am over weight but i have had alot of friends try and become anorexic and they have had alot of trobble doing it just remember u have control over ur self i know it must be hard and i understand you have talked to many people about it they think that they can change the world they probblay dont know what your goin though but .... if u think inside your self that i can fight this i can be strong i will not let this hurtn me any more and fight it just think about your family and y6our friends and if you dont stop u could die this is a problem and u casn fight it even if u think you cant u want it 2 stop so ill help you stop it !!!! please im hear to help my name is jessica and my e-mail adress is [email protected] you i hope you understand Luv Jess ..... ↑ |
| Name: chan | Date: Oct 27th, 2005 3:21 AM |
| i dont know what to say to you as i have never had an eating disorder but i have had issues with weight that has cused me toself harm so somehow i seem to understand if you want to talk give me your msn addy n i will add you x ↑ |
| Name: john parish | Date: Nov 6th, 2005 11:37 AM |
| i can eat due to pain in my chest now im losing weight ↑ |
| Name: fat girl | Date: Nov 10th, 2005 7:26 PM |
check it, eating 5 times a day is really even 2 me to much!
i eat 3 times a day and weigh 132lbz. if u jus start at eating once a day and not thro it up or binge u will after a wile start eatin 2 times a day an i think thats gr8! so my advise... dont bing and eating wont kill u, but the opppisit will. gud luk! ↑ |
| Name: michelle | Date: Nov 11th, 2005 3:06 AM |
Hey Noelle,
I dont know you, but i understand exactly what your going through. Ive been bulemic for like 7 years, and im only 22. Im so sick of it as well. It seems like my life will never be normal. When i try to eat normally its as though i cant stop, like its another person doing it, not myself. If you ever feel lonely i am here to talk. ↑ |
| Name: Kate | Date: Nov 11th, 2005 8:48 AM |
| I know exactly where you're coming from -- i've been bulimic for 11 months now and i definitely have highs and lows all throughout the day and i hate myself whenever i make myself throw up but i cant stop myself from doing it. i've tried telling a few people but they dont understand what im going through so i feel so alone right now... i feel like no one cares ↑ |
| Name: Jacks | Date: Nov 13th, 2005 10:42 PM |
| So I am going through all of the same things that you all are. I stated doing the whole anorexia thing when I was in the 5th grade ( now I am 20), I did it for a while, but I love food too much to stop eating. So I discovered bulimia. At first I thought it was gross and I would just try it out now I am addicted. When I was in my sophmore year of high school i met my husband. I was so tired of living the way I was and I needed help. I told him about it and he did everything possible to help me. Since I met him I am constatly dieting and going to the gym. I thought this would all help but it is still a daily battle for me. I go through phases. Now he is deployed in Iraq and I have started back up. I just can't stop and I don't want to be a failure or let him know. I am doing everything that I can to stop but I see food and just can't resist. Then I just eat and eat and eat. It is awfull!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I thought if I shared this maybe it would help me. Thanks for listening and sharing your own experiences. It makes me feel like I am not alone. ↑ |
| Name: katie | Date: Nov 14th, 2005 6:41 PM |
| i have been bulimic for over a year, but it is only just recently that i have begun to accept that i have an eating disorder. I hide it from my friends, my family, everyone around me. my bulimia is closely linked with severe depression and various other maladies. It is good to come on a site like this and realise i am not alone. But, i think the most important thing (that most people dont realise) is that somebody telling you to stop is not going to make you stop. Someone telling you that you are thin isn't going to make you believe you are thin. The only way to break the cycle is by getting help through counselling or therapy and resolving your own issues. It is only once you can accept you want to stop that you can begin. ↑ |
| Name: Jen | Date: Nov 15th, 2005 8:47 PM |
| Hi, I am 25 and my Ed began when I was 21. I had anorexia for about a year. I went from 5'7 and 125 to 98 in just 3 months. Then, everyone was on me so bad about eating that I would eat to satisfy them and then throw it up. I have been battling bulimia for 3 years now, and I feel so out of control...Noone knows. My husband and are are planning a pregnancy, and he has no idea about this. I am terrified that if i get pregnant that I have damaged my body and will in turn harm my baby. I wonder if i will ever be able to have a healthy pregnancy and baby after this???? Please help. My e-mail is [email protected]. Thanks!!! ↑ |
| Name: angela | Date: Nov 16th, 2005 11:34 PM |
| i respect you deeply for seeking help, bulimia is a horrible disease. it's a vicious cycle that keeps you trapped. please keep your head up, ask someone to have meals with you if you're in fear of being out of control. ↑ |
| Name: morgan | Date: Dec 16th, 2005 1:26 AM |
| i think this may be a hard decison, but i think you need to check yourself into a clinic. if you really care about urself, do it. ↑ |
| Name: chricyy | Date: Dec 19th, 2005 9:44 PM |
| Name: April | Date: Dec 29th, 2005 2:52 AM |
| I'm Bi-polar and i was once bulimic, but now am anorexic. You might have Manic depression. Most people don't realize that eating disoreders normally spring from other mental problems. PLEASE, IF YOUR CURRENT TREATMENT IS NOT WORKING, FIND A NEW ONE!!! DON'T GIVE UP!!!! WE CAN WIN!!!!!!!! ↑ |
| Name: megan | Date: Jan 8th, 2006 2:04 AM |
| my name is megan im 14 and weigh like 180 even though most of it is muscle i cant stand to look in the mirror because all i see is fat and it makes me hate myself...its really hard on my because i have a twin brother who is extreamly skinny and built he is what most ppl would call perfect and no one belive hes my twin i need to loose weight but i dont know how......if anyone has any info on how i can loose weight please comment back or im me at sweetital8 thanks ↑ |
| Name: kendyll | Date: Jan 12th, 2006 9:04 AM |
| hi. im 22 and battled anorexia and bulimia for over nine years. in the past year it has mainly been bulimia and i am struggling physically and mentally with the battle it plays with my mind. It has only been in the last six months that i have actually admitted i have a problem. i have just started treatment. scary ↑ |
| Name: christi | Date: Jan 21st, 2006 9:43 PM |
| oh my lord.... i knew someone was out there just like me but you have no idea what you wrote has done for me ↑ |
| Name: chi | Date: Jan 31st, 2006 4:19 AM |
| Just when you think you are not going to get sick again it talks to you and tells you to just do it one more time and get that great numb feeling. No one understands but a bulimic about that voice.. that uncontrollable voice that moves you into doing something you don't want to ever do again. The only answer is to keep starting over again. Keep trying to beat it. Never give up. ↑ |
| Name: kiederra | Date: Feb 7th, 2006 1:39 AM |
| hey i understand what you girls are goin through.i use to be anorexic.i went from 175lb to 125lb in less than 1 month.i thought that i was the coolest person on earth i was actually able to be a cheerleader!i even got the guys that i had crushes on to notice me.i thought i was so hott!until people started to say they were worried about me.my friends always use to say that i need sum help.i never really thought about how serious it was until i finally got help.and that is what you gurls need is some help.i mean there is a much safier way to lose weight.and it is actually fun! ↑ |
| Name: maria | Date: Feb 8th, 2006 6:30 PM |
| i have been bulimic for 4years now. it started as anorexia and then when people forced me to eat because i was too thin i started to eat and throw up. its horrible. its turned into my life. i get up make food throw up.i know i need to get help. im so sad all the time. and im worried about not being able to get pregnant. i know all the complications and everything. it has taken control. ↑ |
| Name: kari | Date: Feb 13th, 2006 9:48 AM |
Hello
I don't want to live this way either and what really sucks about the whole situation; is that is was self-inflicted! Whether, we did it on purpose or not! Write back if you want and we can exchange responses and talk.
Kari ↑ |
| Name: maria | Date: Feb 13th, 2006 3:16 PM |
| hey kari.i agree with the whole self infliction thing.i never meant for it to come this far. ↑ |
| Name: Lisa | Date: Feb 16th, 2006 6:08 AM |
| Please help! I need advice. I have been bulimic over 3 years and now every time I throw up my nose starts to bleed and drips really really fast until I'm done. I don't want to stop until I've thrown up everything but it bleeds so fast... not like a normal bloody nose. It makes me afraid that by the time I finish I'm going to pass out but I haven't yet. Has anyone else experienced this problem? ↑ |
| Name: erika | Date: Feb 23rd, 2006 2:37 AM |
| hey any body want to chayt ↑ |
| Name: monica | Date: Mar 2nd, 2006 10:55 PM |
| im not even a mom im a little kid that doesn't know where to go. ↑ |
| Name: sarita | Date: Mar 11th, 2006 9:08 PM |
| im not havin a baby so bye my phone is 7709876578 ↑ |
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