| Name: sarita | Date: Mar 11th, 2006 9:08 PM |
| im not havin a baby so bye my phone is 7709876578 ↑ |
| Name: quinaisha | Date: Mar 14th, 2006 10:30 PM |
| this is dum nothing makes you come have anorexia you have control over ur body do they say im going to kill u if u dont be belimic if its not on purpose get doctors help people do it because they want to be like every one else ecspecially like a super model they sholud do them im a kid and have better commen sence im 11 even i have more control over my body it is sad i fill sorry for some of you grown women and teenagers ecspecially adults i understand teenagers a litte but its still not cute my sisters call me fat but im not that way most of you are its really sad well bye and i hope some of you get over this bad bad bad habiet ↑ |
| Name: Natosha | Date: Mar 21st, 2006 1:41 AM |
| im a Ballet Dancer and been dancing since i was 4yrs. old. i was diagnosed with Leukemia 2yrs. ago and had problems with eating because i was just sick all the time and threw up food and medicine and then finally a couple months later i was given a pill that increased my appetite and a year later i was in remission and when i started going to dance for 4 to 5 hours a day realizing that i was getting bigger and not realizing that it was normal for me because i weighed 75 pounds for soo long and i started to think that it looked good and started to think that it was normal and thats what i should look like, so then when i started to gain weight and look in the mirrors at dance and started to compare myself with the other dancers in my class i just started to think negatively about myself and say im sooooooo fat and ugly and when i started to look at old pictures i would just think i looked soooo good what am i doing to myself by gaining weight because i looked soooo good before so then thats when i started to lose weight and say to my self its only a couple of pounds and it would just start off by losing 10 pounds or so to 15 or 20 pounds at a time and thats when i started to depend on the scale at dance and i would weigh myself every day which i still do to this very day and i pinch the skin on myself and say if i could only lose that i would look good but it was more than that it just got really bad although its not that bad today because im working with my teachers at dance and a physical therapist and working on getting more professinal help. I also got the idea to start losing weight by watching Dying to be thin over the internet and just thought that would work thats what m going through. well thats my story and just wish all of you going through an eating disorder the best of Luck and hope you seek help as well as i will so i can pusue to become a Professonal Ballet Dancer. Love ya all wish you the best of luck and thanks for all commets you send and hope to hear from you soon Thanks again. ↑ |
| Name: Amanda | Date: Mar 23rd, 2006 12:51 AM |
| omg that is amazing i feel the exact same way..my low days are like pearl harbour i totally cant even pick myself off the floor and cant stop throwing up, but then my high days are amzing and i dont think about food. When I am with my friends my mind is focused on other things but for some reason when i am alone i feel alone..eventhough i guess im not i cant stop thinking that i am and all i do is hate myself and binge. I am not as severe well i dont as you but i understadn wehre you are coming from ..i recently made the softball team and being outside under the sun with nothing in my stomach is starting to seriously cause problems, but no one knows...well i dont think...i am very quite and seceretive about this..well im sorry i cant realy give you good advice or know how to write down my feelings as well as you but i want you to knwo that u are not alone myself and im sure other ppl are going through the same thing ↑ |
| Name: Laura | Date: Mar 23rd, 2006 3:08 AM |
| I used to worry about what would happen to me if I continue purging...but then I started not giving a damn whether I lived or died...In fact, these days I hate the mornings...It's like, here I go again--do I have the will power to restrict and exercise--or will I give in the seemingly insatiable cravings to stuff my face for an hour than run to the porcelain God?? Ughh, does the madness ever end?!! I've been reading some entries here that some people feel they may never overcome this...and I feel like I may be one of them. It's SOOO hard!!! My other major issue is prescription pills and alcohol. At least with those addictions I just have to stop ingesting them all together. How do ya avoid food? You've got to eat to function! I'm with ya, Noelle--I want a semblance of balance in my life...best wishes dear! ↑ |
| Name: annie | Date: Mar 25th, 2006 1:16 AM |
| im anarexic depressed and i purge ive tryd to stop my parents and my counsiler think i have but i havent n i am still skippin my meals most days i only eat a peice of toast all day and i dnt even wnt to eat that plz help me ↑ |
| Name: TeddyBearCrin | Date: Sep 12th, 2006 7:22 AM |
I just want to say that you said everything that i truly feel deep down. i DONT think your being negative and i DONT think you need to do a stupid excercise like clean out your sock drawer. This is an addiction, its not a tick or a "little problem".
I feel so deeply about what you said and what other people say because i really feel like they dont know. They just dont know the struggles. Its like dealing with a monster in a closet that you bring to life on accident. You cant hate yourself for wanting yummy food! but you dont want to be fat and ugly and invisible all over again either!!
Seeing as i am to going through this.. i really dont have an answer to what could possibly help... At this point i just wantt to be locked away where i cant eat anything until i quit this food addiction the way people with drug addictions can!
If you do however.. grow and you learn how to do it on your own.. please let me know. I am helpless as well. ↑ |
| Name: lucie | Date: Sep 12th, 2006 1:32 PM |
sorry to hear that your bodies damaged i know what you mean bout the feeling of uncontrollable urges to binge eat. Are your family there for you?
Lucie ↑ |
| Name: chloejoe | Date: Jun 16th, 2008 7:01 PM |
| Recently, I lost alot of weight through dieting. I became obsessed with it, depriving myself and constantly pushing myself more and more to lose more weight and get my calorie intake down even more. Deep down I knew i could never sustain a diet like that. I was't anorexic, I've never suffered with an eating disorder. However, the way I act around food now makes me question that. Since reaching and extremely slim 7 st 13lbs, I'm now over 9 stone as I binge uncontrollably. It's like a rebellion, eating all the foods I had recently deprived myself from. I need help, I need to control my eating. I don't throw it up but that doesn't mean i haven't tried. I just tried now but couldn't bring it up. I have no idea what's wrong with me. I've never heard of anyone with the same problem as me and it's getting me more and more down. The thought of putting on any more weight terrifies me and i hate myself for letting myself get like this. I don't want to be like this any more i just want to be normal. I try to discipline myself, sticking to three smalls meals a day but then it just takes over and i lose control. Please help! ↑ |
| Name: lelan14 | Date: Jun 18th, 2008 4:40 AM |
| You are not alone. I am "recovering" and still living with anorexia and bulimia. I would love to talk and exchange stories with you. I feel the same thing and go through the same things and it is nice to know I am not alone. If you want to talk my e-mail is [email protected]. Feel free to contact me :] ↑ |
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